Nothing to lose

miracle only happens once

2010-05-31T20:41:00.003+08:00

ok updating...

results were suckish...i managed to crush the kit-kat completely by the time I was out.

My dad didnt say anything....I ve no idea why I was soo nervous..maybe memories of young age still haunts me...

I went home promising to try harder..i did nth till now regarding my C's in several subjects!

apart from that....nth unusual....happy that i saw bhanu on ptc!

I am enjoying de holidays now more than anything....now that going to scl means lots of home

wrk...holidays seem to be soooo special!

I am in net so much nowdays..

AND jiahui if ur reading this---I love the songs in your blog to the core!It's the only reason why im blogging now!

anyways hoping i will b allowed to go to hira's home....

cuz making her wait 3 yrs is really bad..

After ages,i seriously need to go shopping!

dam,have to end here...A maths is getting on my nerves but im hearing to jia hui's blog songs

and it makes things so much better!

I wish MY fav.dancer dance for that song :-)

whay world am i in

2010-04-17T09:23:00.002+08:00

as terrible as it sounds I nvr even check my blog for 1 month!you can say i forgot abt it.
I m not studying hard,slacking all week.now i got to really study.I hate it.
There's so much going on around me.I am acting like im oblivious to the surroundin.
i thought so much i forgot to think abt myself. and hira is makin me walk during free periods!trust me not for exercises purposes.iM getting chatty nowdaes.
got to shut up n leave now.

its newly old

2010-03-16T14:02:00.002+08:00

rebonding hair is really not to my wish.i look through my hair,it looks like mop or long black curtains.
curly hair rocks -my opinion. it has the twist and turn just like life if you know what I mean.
since i had natural curly hair I expect the rebonded hair to last at least 3 months though hairdresser say 6 months.my dad say i look like mom.gross but kool.to me i kinda look like coconut with mop hair.i can see some signs of curly hair already.whatever it is,i told my mom i will curl my hair at 19 0r so.she's ok with it so things are fine then.
Right now, I can't really bother about hair since i ve to work on my maths that i failed.
what caught me by surprise is my dad sign n say improve. i expected more drama but this is of course better than standing for hours to listen to the advices.it also make me ponder y he didnt scold or sth...i came to realize my mom alr told my dad abt the results so it didnt shock him...
bUT AS ALWAYS i feel guilty not to gif results to their expectation.its sad i nvr make them happy but try that for mid-yr.

okies sis wanna use com..so ending here.
toodles all

15 and ?

2010-02-26T20:51:00.003+08:00

Feb 26 08 by ~kathysgallery on deviant ART
what a long day!I am extremely exhausted and going to shut my heavy eyelids soon.
Yeah,Today turned 15
hira wished at midnight i was asleep saw it in de morning
followed by mom-I had been waiting for this handshake for 14 yrs!
Grandma called and wished
Sister who was suppose to buy me teddy bear n wish me was in her world dreaming
Uncle and cousin wished me in the car..the funny thing they didn't realize its my birthday till grandma say.i didnt expect them to wish either.I was not particularly interested for today to start.So i thanked them anyway and reached school.Hira wished me again and JIA HUI too!Than I got my presents from hira:watch and key chain(the one I blabbered to her about everyday)!!!It was a surprise of course!n nisha n bhanu came.Nisha wished in tamil!lol,she was funny.While going up the staircase bhanu wished me,gIGGLING cuz she thought my birthdae was on 24 n wished me on wed!

CED was about compassionate,I manage to keep my head up by resting my chin on the water bottle.Freakin sleepy.Even then,I promised myself when I work in the future I will be a social worker too..and ten mad maths again failed E maths!!!!!I could have killed myself for that but I was in no mood for that.

PE of course its when my classmates sang the birthday song!If steve didnt wish me from the 3rd/2nd floor I bet the class would not have known but too bad ppl had to sing the song since they knew it.Hahs,and smebody in lower sec was also borned today!Fascinating

Recess time,Steve,Xiao Xi,Khin,Muns,Saran,Arrianie wished.Sorry,if i missed anybody's name!
Eng went to AVA room only to realize the lessons are at 4th floor!in that short while,i manage to walk at the back side of the room.I like that place,calming.

After schoool punitha wished ten Saran AND Nisha go bully me!Im not dirty minded!They wrote the word in near to pen !Bad game but i enjoyed it!hahs mom called thay waited in the carpark had to rush took nisha bottle by acident and could not gif back!sorry we were late for appointment.In the car,dad wished said celebrate in sunday..mom gif me plum to eat.In ate it cuz I was hungry but I hope that was not my present :D i don't mind plum for present but I don' t think my parents would do that.
When to NUH from there and it took forever to follow and finish the procedures!Reach home at 5 +
took a long bath and came out and to my surprise another 2 more cousin ,and another grandma came wishing and chatting.Imagine how tired I was!They left at 8+ and now Im here typing and now going to bed.no more enegry

They are all shades of gray and choosing is hard when you can't see

new world

2010-02-19T19:46:00.003+08:00

I like this skin alot.Represents me perfectly!Hahs,if you notice carefully ,weird things can be seen through the window...interesting.Anyways,today was fun.Thanks to nisha,saran,adhira.Feb 26 is going to be scary,I hope I shut my mouth and somehow disappear.
Cross fingers,hopefully I would not be scolded by anybody...ok confirm I went crazy.
Hmm I have wasted precious time searching a suitable skin.
Next week,I am having tests everyday except Friday.
So,I got to really study,especially E and A maths.......
cling!Now I have to fly and drop myself in to mathematics world!

enjoy weekend ppl!

the first rain

2010-02-06T18:57:00.004+08:00

Saturday it is!So quick...i slept for a complete 12hrs! My parents rejected the idea of going to north korea.I fought against them with all my strength.yea,results are obvious,i failed.
HAiz,I could only calm myself down,by saying i WILL GET what i deserve...
their explainations are old and it dont make sense,so im NOT satisfied with it.
I have tried,that's all.Still,their my only dearest parents.When,im on my own, I bet i will go everywhere,see everyone. they will understand,i know they will
Now,i have to do this vocab ws!english not my thing!

oh As time flys,Im liking mrs.Ong.it's awkward.She represents energy,sports,very jumpy!So,it get's me very excited and very awake!

LET'S GET EXCITED!

hahs,i love it when she talks about her children and their mischeives and ends her story defencing her kids!perfect mother.

ok

plans

2010-02-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

stacked 1 by ~skiface on deviant ART

all stacked up by ~Lady101 on deviant ART

being random
It the FRiDAY im
waiting for

right now ,push me forward

2010-01-31T14:48:00.002+08:00

Independant by ~dragonkat on deviant ART

I can't really tell what's going on. One day, the green boy thing got me depressed.hira was laughing so later i got relaxed.it seems im more worried for A maths and bio!with no tutor ,it feels like im in a remote island.the teachers teach while im making the efforts to understand the concepts,they jump to the next chapter!seriously,wth!I was spoonfed and now I m suppose to be INDEPENDANT!it's so hard and time-consuming.

It's soo bad I didn't even chat for 2weeks and this week is worst Im having 3 tests!Hoping things will get better.Nisha birth day is coming so im wondering how is it gonna be?study,study im sounding more like a nerd each day! The only thing I do other than study is dream.At least,it doesn't require hard work :D

OH,i went to thaipusam too!if your not sure what it is,its where ppl pierce their skin with metals and sort.my cousin and mom carried milk pot on their head and walk in the night 1am to 4am.it was fun ,i walked with them and wipe the dripping milk from their faces.hahs, i realize many things and observe things.it's kind of fascinasting and scary.I had a bad feeling of sth and it actually happened. i told my mom repeatly before leaving.well,she didnt give her listening ear so she faced the consequences.

And to end,I realize sth whomever you call pretty/beautiful,all of them have something similar among each other.a little difference here and there. this can be seen all over the world.so,don't be surprise if you look alittle like Megan Fox or a little like Julia Roberts =D

now i got to go, i have to study BIG BIO,ALL AROUND A-MATHS.

slippping off so bad

2010-01-13T18:14:00.002+08:00

Alone by =BlackCloudConnected on deviant ART

Ahh yeah I HAVE A rotten mouth!I tend to hurt ppl w.words ! instead of shutting up i put "appu"/tell sth i don't have too! pronounciation sucking sucks!What am i going to do!!!!!!!!
yea.today i had no mood for fun.sb being sad made me sad.Im like crossing the border of feeling for them.I noticed sth abt this class too...they gossip abt a person infront of he/her.is it being dumb/on purpose?there were 2 things abt me discussed by 2 differ grps.but i don't want to know at all.call me a coward, i don't bother.

Somehow, i have a high preference for my form teacher as if there's a bonding.weird but she inspires me like the sky is not impossible to touch and i love it.

In other classes its another story. Maths is like a tornado hitting me.Bio yet to be defined.
tl as usual i just like the class n laughs.eng the short-term memory lost land.SS is scary.chem is whoa so much is to be learned!

i can't believe im blogging but i wanted to!

though i sit beside frewns, i feel so alone
so odd
like there's a missing puzzle
and i know its not our fault
its the way things has
been out together

i wish i can search for it
at least wait for it
but the course is demanding
that i have to keep moving
and not stuck in time
another part of me
wants the time to fly faster
to get over these

come over here,once enjoyed differences now seem like a pain

home

2010-01-07T15:41:00.002+08:00

days feel like we are on our way to suffocate and die!whatever,lucky there's frewns to stop by and say hillo at least.Yea,going all nerdy!
anyways this weekend gonna be busy
-buy sis present
-go collect valuable
-buy cake
-hw!
serious want to slack but as usual got to keep moving.the world won't wait for me.
worst.no tutor!I realize i have trouble speaking clearly.And hearing probs!
pls pull me over there,mn

tc

"too much information"

2009-12-29T15:14:00.002+08:00

gosh,internet is here.it happen to be that I typed a wrong password for some configuration!I can't really update cause there's too much ti begin with.
I am happy with life.The flow all goes well.
And school is gonna open! I am hoping 2010 is going to be better cause quite a number of things I favour is leaving.let's hope for the best yeha.
I am getting more fat,arg gg
love this tune like i bet i can die
even if you cant understand the words,i bet you can appreciate the tune
try listening yeah
toodles all

what's the point?

2009-12-17T17:23:00.005+08:00

I don't want to go,totally.Like I am so dumb enough to not know what's going to happen.
Yucks,even talking and hearing about this "underground" stuffs make me want to ran away.
Its not sth I want to be part of.
Can't to you see,I am something else.
You know it,yet you're Ignorant
so ,Ignorant I will be to you

ookies,calmer now.Intially,this post was the updating kind but I guess I had to put down my thoughts.When I grow up Im sure to live my own life!Yeah,thats all.

Not gonna mention anything else.

Taking risks break hearts
Makes you look down in shame
Bring smile on esle's face
Justice is on your fall
Terrifies the evil-minded
Beams pride for the truth

Im trying to make it though its faking it

2009-12-07T21:00:00.007+08:00

teenage awkwardness often smooths over age and comes as beauty

I read off the above from a book. The author said the 16yrs old girl had a genuine smile and great features but need time to pull it off.The story rocked alot.After reading that story,I said to my mom I want to be a detective.She laughed her head off saying I'm a crazy girl.Cause,I saw project runway and said I want to be a fashion designer and now Detective!I don't think there's anything wrong.I'm a really hungry girl,I want to try everything and anything the world has to offer.Ok,Im crazy and you will say that too when you see the list.

I WANT TO BE

doctor
fashion designer
detective
actress
singer
movie director
dancer--ok this is the craziest
pastry chef
interior designer
furniture designer
make-up artist
doing a job that is not on a 9am-5pm base
writer
creative director
accesories & shoe designer
the person who read the news--boringly interesting
painter/artist
......the list flows like river

Once again,my dear mom was going --you ah too much after seeing the list.

actually,kind of agree..hee.

btw,project runway---christopher was eliminated. i was so devastated. I could really relate with that guy. he had nvr attend fashion design school but he have great ideas.Then.i said to myself ,if i go to europe and become a great fashion designer,I will call up him and sponsor him to join a fashion scl.I always thought of that.I had..have great ideas in mind but sadly i lack the skill and techniques.I swear when i grow up i will go to all the courses and wow my parents!hAhas,now you shld hear a song being play in your mind--when i grow up--PCD.The weather has never been greater!IT's literally raining every day and im enjoying it alot while mom curses since she can't dry clothes!I just want to go down and wet myself !I did t only once :( I want more more!hahs greedy piggy!

LET'S GET EXCITED!
oh..DID I forget to mention that im having diarhoea for 5 days continously!arg,that's one disadvantage of rain!It makes my floor cold,freezing cold.YOU WHAT THAT MEANS!my legs get cold and i rush to toilet haiz...its all for gd hopefully.
gg.Taggies will be replied soon :)

stop

2009-11-25T13:08:00.002+08:00

Take care on the long nights away
wish to be with you
some other day

In my search for a blogskin,i deleted 2 of my posts! thats so sadd. hence, it seems like i last posted on 9 nov.ah crap.
Right now, I have not completed my homework.
Eating my life up.
I sleep at 1am and wake at 12pm!
gosh,thats terrible.

my mom, sis and I were seeing mj song vid in home. dady bought cd. my say looks like tamil movie! I was surprised by the quality of the video and actually its not bad at all.
gg so let me make it short.
OLD sofa its now shifted in to my room. New sofa in hall. my room the bed set broke so now i sleep with the matress on floor!kinda kool ..i like it

Cousins play day

2009-11-09T12:35:00.004+08:00

8 nov 09(YTD)it was super fun!

as usual morning,wake up...but mom was sick to cook!so i was extremely happy cause i can eat outside!hahaha cruel!
My sis,mom and daddy ate briyani. I ate chicken rice. I was too bored of briyani.

Around 2pm, we went ot west coast plaza. my dad wanted to buy new handphone since we received a voucher. later,the singtel man say we cant use for some idiot reason.
To kill time, we roamed around west coast plaza.

Then had a drink in Tully's coffee(i think).
my mom and i were sitting while dad and sis went to order.I was looking at the boy who was talking to my dad..cause i was wondering my sister was staring at him like he's a monster. My mom was like y am i staring at the boy like i have never seen one. so we laughed our head off cuz the pity boy didnt know what was happening! :D

Finally cold storage..bought this roasted whole chicken as myy cousins were coming to my home.

Went home and changed to sports attire.Went down with cousins and play.We played with some younger boys.Gosh,they speak so well! And they played a game called number out...my couz & i were puzzled!Since,we never played the game before!

I did noticed something

I say-shit!
the boys say-shoot!
I say- oh my god
The boys say- oh my goodness

ok then we headed home. slacked and played Indian song game..quite fun
followed by ghost story-i told the ghost story from ghostbusters(Jia hui lended me once!thank you)

Then we talked and cooked our version of maggie mee and ate it w.the roasted chicken. Yummy!
then,we ate ice-cream cake cuz 8 nov is K7 birthdae.
he came from army camp 5/6 nov. I didnt attend the birthday celebration :(

ard 10+ my couz left.

PEAR LADY

2009-11-02T11:50:00.006+08:00

I got my inspiration from Ravi Varma to draw an Indain lady.

But it looks nothing coompared to his drawing thou.

hahs, anyways its kinda cruel i spoiled her face.

art cca...i think its 2-6 n hmm 3 sessions according to noticeboard.

wed,i must sms steve...cuz he aso must gif report slip...

n this mj-this is it
kool ,i think he wrote this song for his die-hard fans
n smewhat i feel he knew he's gonna go soon....when he wrote it...
but i still love really the song thou i wana smack him for leaving,v must stand tall for his work n he as a character!
oh n my fav lines were
i never heard a single word abt eu
falling in love wasnt my plan
i nvr thought that i wld be ur lover
come on pls just understand

yeah u n me what?

2009-10-31T20:22:00.004+08:00

she is my wallpaper in com.. i love her eyes so innocent .she reminds me of gizem but i thinks this lady better..her eyes says much. its by RAVI VARMA.
he rock n i fancy him.i idolize him.i always wish n tried to capture the person's thought in de drawing which i fail.but this guy nvr had lose on that. i wish one dae i manage to capture what the person is feeling in my drawing,that will be my greatest victory.
i know im not really an art into person but i really want to acquire this skill.my moom said even famous artist struggle to capture that in drawing... :(
maybe u cant suceed in everything but im trying..

gosh im that glad that the mass library stuff happened!really,well maybe this week,it was the best.i borrowed 4 books. i read finished 2 big books n im telling i wont regret i had them!or they found me!one was kinda similar to the Ooutsiders but allitle differ...another totally the opposite.the 3rd book i sae suck(orange book)the author kept dragging the beginning that i wld stuff myself to death!arg ok mayb e i went insane reading two thick books in 2daes!but it seriouly rocked!i wanna read it again n dump the orange book ..u suck a little more.(im happy on these books )
oh n if pondering on the post tiltle n label its nth abt me yeah its a line in the 1st book i read n sth real funny happened after that line..u will get it whern you really get in to the story!hahs im still giggling over that bit..excuse me on that!if im gona tell its dam lame u gt to really read it.
my mom was like since when did you sink ur head in books...hmm maybe she read the book she wld ve known...nth bad but a miracle...i lurf it
praba said i chose books with cute covers ...i guess thats what she said
i wonder what cute really means...i analysed the book covers i thought it expressed what de story is gonna be...well differ ppl differ view
oh it rain todae so as my responsibilty hit me hard i stand near the window for abt 20min staring like the wae i stare the moon n sky n cloud.As if the gonna swallow me up or gonna tell me sth or talk to me or sth...kind of hope they would ..u know fake hopes..
...maybe one dae i stand ,holding on to the window grill as i feel de cold breeze,i wld see a tornado ...a small 1 ..sth just i c n its disappears before anybody notice...so crap ok so i stand there from the begining of rain from shower to downpour.i withnessed sth strong but im that lazy to type..
Daddy coming tmrw!fuuwoots,hope he is ok w.de results.pass few daes had been hard to speak to dad across the phone...i dont sense my dad so i gt to see him live tmrw..

gg but bits of updates
4nov 09 ---art club 4 hours wed....i think 11 am but aint sure...gif result slip to office...ask if i cld still give the sec1 n 2 books on 10 nov...

10 nov09---results for combination...gosh dady's gona know i nvr take triple sci!DANGER ZONE! collect stuff from hira

an acceptance

2009-10-24T18:13:00.002+08:00

note:restrain from sms-ing to my hp cuz i kinda forget where i kept my
charger...its switched off.

Gosh,why is my mind thinking so wrong!it's all just so wrong!
why can't I imagine with sbelse better?! i guess my brain can't help it.it just imagine too much! and i m trying to define this person n what that sb has to do with me? i don't like to keep it a mystery. i hope time unreveals. my mind is think bad again got to return in peace!
well yeah thats all,i m gonna turn 15 in months yet i have bad gross thing i yet to stop.i wished i end it soon!

its all alone

2009-10-23T18:43:00.010+08:00

yeah FRIDAY!okies quite crazy.nvr go camp.so yeah nisha n steve sms in morning n smsed them n stuff.sth interesting gona happen at weekends kinda simliar to open house now at my home.so yeah,i hope its better than previous.risky yet addictive food n ppl is heading on my wae.so im gonna lock myself n teach my sis for her exams!hahs,im real bad. so yeah i was looking at blogs n stuff n realized my my pri-scl realli changed alot n now thinking abt i dun regret avoiding her...its kinda weird ,not hating her but sure gonna avoid.
i was wondering why do i lone things to myself when i ve those who are there for me n im like not sharing w.them..n why had i nvr smiled once in any if my young age photos..my mom said she was very emo when i was inside her so its the result.i ve heard abt this n its quite true..lol now i cant really bother abt this issue.
todae blow dry my hair(usualy towel dry)n i noticed my hair's really curly n its kinda wild n messy n tells alot about me!hahs sad its not so nice looking cuz its frizzy.i surfed the net n realized that frizzy hair occur in humid countries cuz water particles in absorbed into hair or sth.i was discussin w.mom abt rebonding hair she said dun need do at 18!evil ah!but i planned to to curly like my hair is just more define.hahs abt 3 yrs to wait=(
okies talking crap n stuff ,have to go .
what's eating you up?

living through confusion

2009-10-21T16:04:00.004+08:00

gosh y is so much of stuff thrown @ me in 2 dae!1st knowing deepavali open house came in as a shock following by frewn trouble accompanied by my loose mouth tortured by the rush too choose my next year history/geo selection n 3-1-13-15!im struggling here cant u c & understand...?

then in bus saw steve n jia hui who called me to sit w.them!aiyo i dun
like sittin @ back =(
but just sit,i dam blur sotong duno wat they talking n like wondering how to get down cuz got a guy placing his leg outside at de side. i m already known as clumsy gerl ,i go hit him when leaving n nearly trip!sooo embarassing! first time mah...hoping it was not soo obvious.

NOTE:
Saddam if ur visiting this blog again it is mine!JAMZ!
DON'T you dirty my taggie!

hmm coughing

2009-10-15T16:53:00.000+08:00

What Meharunnisha Means: M is for Mysterious

M is for Mysterious

E is for Explosive

H is for Hyper

A is for Athletic

R is for Relaxed

U is for Unusual

N is for Nutty

N is for Normal

I is for Intense

S is for Sincere

H is for Hot

A is for Arty

What Does Your Name Mean?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

quiz crazy

2009-10-09T12:02:00.003+08:00

You Act Like You Are 14 Years Old
You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

souce:
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/results/?result=14

wow not bad ah atleast the quiz judge me correctly so precise
atleast im known as 14. how surprisingly frewns do try
is it me or what!lol

what continent are r u
AFRICA
You are unpredictable, chaotic, and a bit of an underachiever. People say you don't live up to your potential.You have so many resources at your disposal, but you haven't figured out how to use them yet.You've had a hard (and possibly even violent) life, but you've remained beautiful and even tranquil at times.You are a mystery to most people, but that doesn't stop them from wondering about you. You are alluring and magical in many ways.
THIS TEELS ALOT ABT MY HAIR!MUAHA

Deep Down You Are Intuitive
You're the type of person who understands other people and the world very well. You don't let on to how much you know.You can tell so much from someone's facial expressions or tone of voice. And you always know when you're being lied to.You show the world exactly what you want to show. Besides being good at reading people, you also know how you're being read.You know when you're being manipulated, and you know how to manipulate someone if you have to. You usually don't resort to it though!

know the world very well...hmm that shld be corrected

What Jamunah Means: J is for Jolly

J is for Jolly

A is for Ambitious

M is for Mystical

U is for Unforgettable

N is for Neglected

A is for Athletic

H is for Hardworking

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyournamemeanquiz/">What Does Your Name Mean?

http://www.blogthings.com">Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

You Are Level-Headed and Trustworthy(hidden meaning of my name)
you are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You Are Powerful and Determined(meharun nisha)
You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You Are Bold and Fearless(adhira)
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

different

2009-09-18T15:31:00.003+08:00

http://www.thousandsketches.com/blog/?cat=79
like it but lil blur
url here so i wont be charged!:P

throwing out

2009-09-10T13:28:00.000+08:00

okie i stayed in net for 2hrs or more for lit can you belive it!i wld nvr b a news reporter!
i gt so much to do
-art
-sci
-tl
-geo
-tuition hw
-n sme other crap hw i dun remember but alot is alot!
so yeah currently ppl's lfye are not sweet n are restricted to de society.well gt nth to sae abt it.
manage to sign report slip todae!phew,escaped daddy's trap or watever i think it is.
n yar i was thinking abt me n hw i bhaved at scl..
i realised im quite an irritating personality when it comes to doing grp project n stuff..hahs mayb thats y i prefer individual project..shld learn hw to calm down n gif space to others. since u cant leave ALONE in the WORLD.
n hmm yar im hearing irava pagala like sian a lost song found with de aid of nisha of course!thx u nini pandi=)
ok gg rushie now.tc peeps

i would like to believe that planet earth turns sloowly...

2009-09-07T18:36:00.002+08:00

HEY ALL GRP MEMBERS,
JUST DAM REMINDER
----TMRW,113OPM-3PM AT SCL FOR GEO CUM CED PROJECT.PLS COME PREPARED.DUH U GUYS NOE THIS STUFFS.THX ALL :D

n yeah i heard this song twice in radio
u noe me if i like it i gt to ve it
no worries this oni applies for songs!;D
so here's de vid..
n it actually tells a joke shapey told me!

it's sth abt this line -why do i tire of counting sheep

hahs n i like the planet earth line ah!
though not my kind but its nice !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI4JLa0hbUw
look here for the real vid,if ur interested that is..

***so here 's one just to hear preview i call it

sweet ;that was a lil sweeter

2009-09-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

okae lets c last dae today.well,arm dae began weirdly...smehw i sensed the class atmosphere was not right..n i was not wrong.so skip.
tl class arg if she does see my bs!take note, i seriously dislike eu reading my compo out to de class!wo cares its high/low?!i don't prefer it nowdaes.i wrote compo-stories from heart flowing with emotions such an excitement-honest HERE,but u gave me 26/40..i wrote sth with much effort u gave me 33/40..i know hardwork is important and it gives you the high marks all yearn for but that's not i want ..well not all de time.i wanna c how far my story can go.sth that i experienced n wrote in words to be shared n told...i know it was good cuz its from heart.i deeply felt it is.i dislike that ur mark sets a boundary to that.i swear if u had read the 26/40 story to de class,they would ve enjoyed it maybe not impressed.i dun wan them going wow/ah/how long u took..blahblah..n yet not understand de story?!i want it to be simple in words but holding great feelings.sth i want a person sae-hey,i enjoyed ur story.thats all!but the need to carry on all that they believe/trust in me is stopping this..whatever it is it dun ve to be ur best-writen story that u ve enjoy heartly.

music a nice song with creative lyrics ruined by the perfect friends;D
we do that together too!but lol it was fun u noe!

ced,not bad okok.the commenting part i alr told jia hui that will happen so i was not much surprised
sad that de whole class nvr write nvetheless for all those wu wrote sth ...thanks ur words has make me understand a better me.n joel,i swear u wld die if i wont bully u!u noe its one of de waes to keep well us alive!
it was nice of kristen to write letter..smehw i miss her though we both are at two ends.surprisingly,the last few daes i spend with her were sweet and sth beyond connected with her n she did like it.then,i didnt know she's gona leave but im glad the last few daes with her were de sweetest..n for dnt faizal is gone n now none seat at my place!now,there's nobody to crumple my ironed uniform!=(

during de end of tiz term,i understood that sth i wld appreciate won't be gd/strng for sbelse to be appreciated.
sth that would make me pounder for daes is sth one other wld take a min to dump it away.i wont sae my standard is low maybe i m not that exposed n i tend to c even the smallest as a big deal. as for them,mayb they saw too much that this is nth to them or being well-exposed they ve been clouded with thoughts n forgot to appreciate those wu care for them...i wonder one of these daes i will find an answer..

so yeah toodles peeps..its gona be a meaningful week to come

u make me go creepier creepier

2009-08-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

im sleeping n slacking!none of de hw is done.woke in morning in attempt to do tuition hw!but wth calculator officially spoiled so time passed but my workload remained.in de end,i listened songs n watched movies for hours!

i wished i nvr digged into the issue
now u stirred my emotions
but i cant tell u that
not right now
so my mind wanders all nite
wen exams are around
feeelin guilty
not in task
i dun wana fail myslf this time ard

hopin hard sundae cmes ard well.n i realized i shld not give up on you on any states
and that i shld stand up for you under any circumstances.your special its aint wrong
i wont let de society distrupt ur shining ability.ROCK ON GERL!

AaAaAaaA VIKRAM!

2009-08-22T20:07:00.006+08:00

hahs todae dam shiock after vikram radio interviewww! gee!dam shiock purely!hahs i bet no other actor can be like him!so ENGAGIN :D
dam funny so fuuny just funny all FUNNY
one guy go called him vakrim!!hahs wth!
2 girls went nutz saeying AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA V-I-K-R-A-M i love you!hahs then one the gerl mom aso sae!wat the! he was like omg momy too!!!!hahs my mom n i were laughing so bad!!!!!!!!n dam he had goood memory remembered a gerl he spoke to 2 yrs ago(akila)!aahhh breathtaking lah!
actualli to be honest,i nearly moved to surya(actor)side but them when i heard vikram's voice!ahh dam no wae!he rocks better :P WAE BETTER THAN ANY! his son dam cute hahs the scene!
Roflmao !
HAHS, my daes were so ah like watever w.no interest
n wen i heard vikram's voice i got sooooooooooooo
hyper !jumping ard like nutz!meow meow(soong)!SUPERB IS DE word he used most!
i noe none of my frewns is a fan of vikram
but i dont care
maybe thats y im so differ
hahs just nth like
vikram!
i just went nutz!
so those i tagged may go wondering y i sounded soo crazy!
dam sian the radio thing ended!but fuuwootz.whoppee,yipee,whipee!tmrw at vasantham central
gt !i hope he come clean shave :P his daughter rock tooo!that guy rock BIG TIME

his the man for de JOB---dam INRI yr famous lines :O

i wanted to sms or call my frewns to share my xcitement but i decide not to cuz i noe they wont bother a bit n not their fault u cant force interest n xcitement,it shld cme by itself.n partially i didnot dare...cuz frewns are just too differ..they wld go soo?!i dont like de actor ..keep it to urself ..i dont like means i dun like...--i ve heard many a times n i dun take chances to spoil myu only new excitement...so i loned it...enjoyed it all myself..so nicce

so i just cant wait, my daes ve been enlightened!
n i cant wait for another!
n daddy PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
BUY THE MOVIE!I VE TO SEEE DAM PLS..WAITED TOO LONG TOO LET GO NOW!
i wana upload pic but dam bs got prob!:(
:(

################kays so here's abt my life part#####################
--i dun like one person's act i feel awkward n uneasy but i dun ve de gutz to sae it as expected
--i thought about this line n smehow i like to the hardcore!GEE a guy sae to a gerl for duno wat reason u gt to ask my dream/imaginating skills on that!

ENTRANCE OF FAMOUSE MOVIE COUPLE
the interview q:ur one of de couples who have made love for a long time..so what's the secret?
SHE'S ONE OF THOSE DE UNSOLVED MYSTERIES N THATS WHAT KEEP ME DRIVING
ALL THESE YEARS
the interview q:hmm thats an unexpected ans.could u elaborate further?
yes,yes(wise)now u see i knew her for quite a long..n as u noe guys..nah guys just had to know
well a beauty like her..
so i went up rather speaking so called
n i spoke n i spoke
it nvr ended
u noe we men put a label to the stuff we noe
but SHEE oh man,one hard chick.
my mind struggled to label her
everydae was differ n was nvr de same ard her
n my curiousity to "label"her
made me drive harder n i still am...
but i could nvr n will nvr stop
like a rat chase
ten i guess y not marry A lady
who keeps me going all these daes
n so i did
hah n now i m happier than ever
(in an announcement kinda voice)MY PERFECT WOMAN
wife-a humble,shy smile
guy-look react my smiling

lol i guess i do dream too much!
okie so watever,hw has to be done n my mom going ard saying not to blog
since xam coming i said k..but dam u think i study!?i would spend it on other hobbies duh!?
so vikrram rocks!

P.S.
If your not A fan OF VIKRAM ur negative tags,comments,opinion are not welcomed.
some times being clean with yr rules makes it alot easier.
no offence on any one in particular
thx for kind ur understanding :D

not losing out

2009-08-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

damn!im slacking like shit!all the test so far flopped and it gets me frustrated like hell.so if ur gona compare and i sae i did better and if i was raging dont be stunned if shout @ eu.im so lost in maths and science. And no am i gona lose out to others.I shall fight with all my might.so YEA to dramatic .why cant sb make it all easy for me!oh yeah sb state if anybody love that sb*cant say :D u fool, i did once and many did but you were in ur own rat chase.peep left u long ago and now u realized it too late!so im not coming,im closing the door.There's no place for you dumb!hahs nth feels like scolding!yea, i realized i am much fortunate than many in our class after analysing..oh yeah todae was niceee.rice and i bully each other after a long time!i like it we just have to!hahs trash.yeha rhamesh when insane say respect me like sth then shot subo me in steps!great deal i nvr fall.whocares maybe if i did i wont be able cme scl!koool!hahs oh yeah nisha n i pushed jia hui for 2.4km making her pass! :p
WAY TO GO!jia hui lalala! it was good we not force her much!gd!gd!no feeling like helping freen succeed..yeah going home time nic was chatting w.nisha.i smehw knew it was about me so i got to ask. in the end, it was being smart. haiz,i thought got sth juicy bah!hahs then nic wen on saying beautiful so ovious he was being sarcarstic!gee truth cant be avoided!so i tried to do de action of "arg yeah like real"but he nvr got it!lol nvm thou.oh yeah praba was asking abt my hair so did elton -is it hard to comb ur hair?it would be nce if oni the back is curly..whoa todae mcuh was on my looks. Actualli mani duno that my hair is easy to maintain but i dont.And the on top me hair is wavy down is currly.lol i guess oni i will know.thrash again!oh yeah,i came home untied my hair since it was so warm!i walked around grabbing some tit-bits .it is my wae,i will oni proceed with my stuff until dad leaves-respect.so yeha and i was siting in sofa eating orange away!yummy i swear u cant be a beter fan than me in orange eating :D so yeah suddendly my dad observing me away like i was sth. it was so awkward my mom was like y are u blushing?oh i did?!hahs u dont really ve my dad looking that wae!after much later,he said i looked like ma wen young,givin a side smile.dam nice !Geeee BUT I VE NO INTEntion to look like mom n may b y not she one fair lady!hahs crap.i felt great wen dad look at me cuz its my sis who always catches his attention!hahs i wld live for this moments.but u noe i wld end it funny cuz if not ppl look at me like sth saying my face sudenly glow n trash.dam y u face!learnt how to hide wat yr heart feels!this are sme things i loved most todae. of course with exception frewns dun ve to sae its a everydae thing!laughing giggling away w.nisha .bullying nad plaing with hira stopping by at shapey.ok gg to do hw!

im loving it all tonite

2009-08-16T19:59:00.000+08:00

lol had not been blogging for quite a while.i guess i didnt want to blog everytime.1st-whenever moom c me u noe blaaaaaaaaaa.2nd-im too lazy i oni ve sufficient time to peep bs n tag!gee,but all that days i had been writing what i had been thru,how i felt n stuff in a secret mechanism*,nisha u noe whr.so yeah most daes were super boring ,sad,emo,frustrating so it was good weekends came rather well.fridae after scl was the nightmare i was drenched in tears n stuff-not willing to share..pity crap too!sat was one lazy dae i had the all time on earth to watch 3 moives n none of my hw was done!i was just not into work.i wanted to drag myself slackin my wae to bed.And todae was greatest,i had great time with pa.he rocks :D just de wae i wanted.we had great time chattering away.now,you wont ve that often with i school-ing and pa working.we had chattered many times but i love it when when we laugh de most.todae was one of that "one more dae pls.."daes.hope it happens everydae...since,pa is really into work now cuz of economic crisis!so god if ur too advance n read my heart n my blog cuz its not easy to read a gerl's heart...pls do things back to normal or better than before,i promise i wont neglect the wae i did,i wont fly off wen i found boredom in her n i would love them more n hurt them less..
so yea,todae was my 1st dae in my entire life i recall,goin shoping with ma purely for well shopping clothess,shoes,rings all you cld label :D well not completely but 98% yes!i could not be happier.sis was not bad too.
n my fab n super.fav. part was i bought so many dresses of my dream.esp.one i had been secretly yearninig in my heart since p4!not the dress but in that color!so gorgeous!dam i looked dam good like princess!wen my heart really wishes or wants sth it nvr goes wrong!it was de perfect color for me!now,looks like im exagerating but geerls like me wont look good everydae..so looking @ urself n being happy once a year is not wrong :p

IM LOVING ALL MY DAE TONITE WITH MY LOVED ONE!food was good,family was good,fashion was good!todae was just too great noting overbeat making my heart pound nth to downbeat making me frown..just sweet yea just sweet.so it started drizzling wen i came home steps the sec!i sat down looking on top.cool breeze,raining awaw,dark clouds,rattling leaves ..ahhhh...oni tornado was missing..i wish i see one before i go off in peacE...why dont u come for me!!i cant come to c u since u dont tell me!im not paparazzi!i just wana stand one corner c u whirl n swirl in a great force!n i wld nvr ask a thing after that.

so here for that sb on fridae,even u wont read my bs,even if u duno to read:

we ve beem living in these same roof for all the years
i remember
i had made u cry
u crying for me,made me jump to the sky
ur love n respect for me is valuable
the wae we understand
is miracle
cuz not even parents know
i ve been frustrated over euu
many times n still am
but i noe u nvr meant
any of that
innocent soul
but im just a human
i gt to get mad
i ve to blow off at another
n made the another
sad
i scold u
thou we both dislike it
cuz i cant allow
u to be taken down by others
n it means no body!
it hurts everytime to see u
being pulled down
n u not knowing a thing
i care for u
with all my soul
n i wont let u go
i ve but none were permanent
n i will
hold you like the wae i did
on fri-dae
cuz ur sb i wont give away
my precious garnet..

so yeah i guess it's one week load here,n now i gt to fly to do art.tc peep.
this nite,tonite i wont be late
to be there for eu
i cuz i noe
there's no promise
for another dae.

lovin it all

2009-08-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

oh yeah hapy late national dae wish!hahs 2nd yr in sec scl alr!todae was great. my tagboard is overflowing just like my sms tonite!hahs thx peeps!lol i replied all n crossed de limit twice!oh gosh,pls dun increase my bill!im not dne w.hw yet!its nite alr....sis came home sorry couz i meant.superb we were talkin abt frewns and i realized there was much going on than mine.i hope it gets better for her as well as for nisha,hira,shapey & me!hahs n yea mom's bro brought indian dress!dam i love it,,,my sis one rocks but not my size!wth!anyways,it looks better on her!oh yeah,loved my sis(couz)she rock ah like to de max!
thou we fight like hell our bonding is strong like spider web!hahs k weird eg!gg now
rushing for maths test,tl compre,maths ws!

scl
a fun place
but wen weekends ends and school's
gona start
misery
joins me!

no one knows how i feel
but it does not matter
cuz i got eu!

miserable events

2009-08-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

dam todae was super suckish. morning dad was shouting in de hp(work demand i guess)as usual sis and parents cat fight-u nvr get enough of it here.so yeah i went into room to dry my hair n papa was like y aint u changed.i was where n y?jurong.oh(irritated by de tone)i duno ma nvr sae.i hate when dad go glommy n darkened.so yeah while leaving house i asked ma if she had taken her hp and i closed de door n i asked my parents whr key.pa say inside!mati!so we stand outside house 30min since all keys were in.ma was like y u left it in to pa and pa was like y jam...i was arg....i responded toneless.i had nth to sae.i wasnt there yet.so my dad dropped ma n me in jurong and waited in car........skip this part(time constraint)
locksmith was called a while ago.so he arrived and opened charging $70!omg!n so dady cmebck to pick ma n me up.sis was siting in de front n she was rolling like prawn .my dad thought she's playiing.n she vomited!yuckish u cld see raw vegetables!gross!n yeah cleaning up in process.dae was dam bad but i cut down the details.
1st me then sis...i guess my dad suffocate the most.
IM sorry foor being part of de reason.
but i nvr told him tat

oh and the chorus lines,while in jurong i heard a song more similar it was not by akon
so i realised some of words were from this song but the tune was from akon!
hahs but
no one how i feel
is truely mine!

no one how do i feel
but it doesnt matter
cuz i gt eu

de cover tells a different story

2009-08-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

todae was ok.short day.saw my couz she ytd nite walk from suntec and 630 only came scl.she looked terrible.i hope she do well.it was all for NDP.changed skin-itz okae smehw my mind links this w. jessica alba...mayb cuz she use neutral colors -i like tat idea.kinda tired but there's much to do.

*RANDOM
“If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life.”
Oscar Wilde quotes

“Friends are those rare people who ask how we are and then wait to hear the answer.”

“Women are like apples on trees, the best ones are on the top of the tree. The men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and don't want to get hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't so good but easy. So, the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top becuase they value quality.”

“A teenager is always too tired to hold a dishcloth, but never too tired to hold a phone.”

“I think the hardest part about being a teenager is dealing with other teenagers - the criticism and the ridicule, the gossip and rumors.”
Beverly Mitchell quotes

“Kids are constantly comparing, especially teenagers, constantly comparing themselves with other people. And when you're ragged and you're physically, almost repulsive, as I was, with infected eyes and rotting teeth and so on, and clothes that were ragged, I had no self-esteem. How could I?”
Frank McCourt quotes

“The whisper of a pretty girl can be heard further than the roar of a lion.”

“No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl. All little girls should be told they're pretty, even if they aren't.”
Marilyn Monroe quotes

http://en.thinkexist.com

no one knows how do i feel
but it doesnt matter
cuz i gt u
:)

thriller-mj

2009-08-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

out of cinema
i think it went this way.nisha do correct me if im wrong
--are you scared?
--no,a little..
--ur scared
reaction n expression by gerl

i think i the real was a lil.differ.
but yea it had abt de same substance
i like it
ALOT

Insecure

2009-08-04T17:53:00.001+08:00

blah blah scl was ok..waited here n there dragged time a little longer than normal.ipw juz sucks dam im doing the poster part if sb wld help...fate leads de wae.i wana slack n run away.dam i ve a bad attitude towards cing stuffs.and yeah sb was like going blahhhhhhhhhhh blaah n blablah about me n my looks/appearance whatever wae it is

sb:hey u and ur couz look similar ah..

like i duno,y get ur nose in!

i:hahs mayb a liitle

sb:hahs yar she's more pretty bah..u jealous?

i:no lah y must i?u nutcase ah if sb gt beauty agree n go lah

sb:ve ppl come to u n ah like use u bcuz of yr her?

i:are u taking a quiz!ten y so many q?!

sb:sae lah wana noe

i:gt ah.

sb:jealous?

i:u stupid no!i dun bother anyhw!

sb:wat du u think of ur couz

i:u dun noe her shut ur trap u..!

sb:wat du feel abt urself

i:duno gd gerl ah home bad lah.hahs

sb:lol u.but u dun attract others rite

i:hmm no dam rare,now i gg

sb:kays,ur differ from her but she more known than u

I FLEW OFF

what was that sb askin ?!so perplexed!yar she's better
n im happy for her i wont go crazy and jealous
i might get upset that im not like her but i get over it fast
i like my wae,i noe ppl frm there*---since thats y u aspect me to b popular
but i not dun go off showin bsides its not cool or watsoever n total crap
i like de attention but its once a blue moon
so zip it sb!

no one knows how do i feel
but it doesnt matter
cuz i gt u
:)

u will find hapiness

2009-07-30T18:09:00.000+08:00

todae rocked after scl with shapey n nisha!cant elaborate further---i spoke too much.todae was kinda loose mouth. too hyper=loouse mouth=aapu. nisha was rite she said b4 if im noisy kind sure appu.well she gt that rite.lol cca cancel cld anything be better!hahs yeah science had differ seating smehw i prefer khin..yeah.hira left us nvr sae b.dam i saw vasuki xpression wen she saw hira.i noe she ve hurt me watso ever but i dont bother about that..i did like the wae she looked.it had an understanding yet wise look to it.i dun bother if ppl reject abt it,my opinion.next time wen there's an outing i sure will plead dad!dady rocks more than ever!hahs.i foresee sth big.let's see.

suffocating in time

2009-07-27T18:17:00.001+08:00

hillo!dam all i wana is get way back to sec1. i had too much time now i wana buy time..wish sb sell it.hahs talk abt reality.weekends were nerdy daes. woke up at morning slep late just to do hw!now who on the right mind set wld do that!?sleepless daes when scl yeah todae...as usual stuff..nisha go buzzing!lol she always keep her life moving.so here i am basically drained i would right nlow enjoy a long break!my science is slackin im not even able to calculate neutrons!damn.yeah tamil too suckish.almost everything u name it.life is kind of getting bored since nth much is happening in my lfye right now.eu can cing me talking less =way less.I wana find sth interesting other than my couz sae it stuff.hopefully,grant my wish!todae hair 80s style mom never get enough of me bullying away.no matter tat,i still sort of like it.freedom for my ears!managed to take my earsring off finally!my was giving leture on how ear ring help ur brain work efficiently...........mam,she's one tuff lady!lol just the right type for me...we were arguing away and i was kays im off i tired so she was!n i was mom ,most of de tamil gerls in my school are dam pretty and i was refering to nishaaa.no reasons y her i guess i m living off her...okae maybe not..hee.my mom was like many time will you nisha like tat,nisha like this!i was like oh really?!my mom went off the legends blabbering away about how individual has their own beauty waiting to be discovered.my mom said models just discovered it up improvise it.come on!not all will appear in tv attracting de audience!you just can't tell that to her!lol solid gerl but she knows and agrees i look better with make-up.who knows,i might look like ghost!

fab.fridae

2009-07-17T17:44:00.005+08:00

wow i call tis dae!fuuwootz!slacking as de wae love it.lazy to type so yeah -point form

detention!hahs so long i missed it.lol
wen nut in tl ,serious i talked non stop pity hira gt trouble cuz of me(sorry)
toilet guy scold me 'siow'(beware euu!)
food bad todae
alifah(pri scl frewn-best frewn) she spoke!so happy thx to her!im glad!n i was quite stunned i was lost 4 words...talked crap
saran choco(MUST BUY)
telling story to nishhha!n she was saeing cute...(hearing this word too much lol not my type hahs but i like it)
music wth games!hahs but its still slacking!
ced aiyoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
courage to sae 4 nisha a comment
intially wanted to sae ur my best frewn n i will cherish u forever
but too like sth so afraid ppl sae sth sorii..
wanted to sae comment for these ppl but failed to:marcus,kristen,jia hui,hr,r,ct,nic,xx
went hme w.frewns talked so loud n i didnot care wu c(heckcare)
dady's arrival to fetch me but i was in bus sian!
elton n gang fuwoootz serious u rock!nth big lah they hi bye but yeah soo nice remind me of much
gd comments on frewns by dady
hira sae my dady cooooll!!!!!fuwootz dady hahs
guity(mayb)cuz i spoke like machine alot even after scl
maybe for 2 daes i listened to nisha n speak much that i outburst hahs
u cant help it went such a addictive chatterbox gerl is yr frewn!(no offence!)
nisha n hira rock!
momy sae next time i walk in traffic like watever(as always)she will chop me
VIOLENT LOVE!
i thought u changed for the sake but u reALI showed u did
im proud of euu

out n dated

2009-07-16T17:57:00.003+08:00

i was prayin so hard at bus stop that my bus arrive soon cuz i left home late..lucky came on time.yeah gave siti ipw stuffs b4 u knew it she went to hostpital.hopefully,she recover soon.after cing her i was so down.i was like y did the world not stop to see her!arg i guess ppl focuz their thoughts in mind.yeah so kept shut for good long time.its nce a differ experience like the past.elton refilled bottle!it was sooo the 1/1 style!lurv it to d'e core!!!fuuwootz elton!hahs.n yeah debate r was staring at me duno 4 wart .eyes dancing here n there.sat with r oh ten kiri saw sth n was like eew!i ve seen it like duno how mani times.i wish she learn /adapt to d'e culture.n yeah gs was like saying my name i would ve thrown him into de river.hahs.n yeah sci buddy gerl JIA HUI hahs fun !fun! she was asking me questions on personal lfye.i slip thru all her her traps!lol and ask her sme stuff too lah.she from no where sae i pretty than my sis.nisha had said that b4 2!lol i guess they will noe the truth wen they c my sis @ 14.they just mite b wrong.(my opinion)yeah after went as gang super nice!!enjoyed n i was like loosu go w.frewns lose all the manners!hahs ok tats all

i dreamt a garden im my dreams
in one of those flower pots,
the flowers bloomed
they had my colors
but that fragrance
is truly yours

note:mitch albom rock!

gone where

2009-07-12T20:51:00.002+08:00

sian soo much happened i wana tell but arg no time for it.ate alot like alot.ten yeah was talking n argueing w.mom like hell.im ving a bad mood i wanted to scold n fight w.everybody.kept on telling my self dun show the anger on others.duno wth i was during during these daes!im not done w.hw!!!!!!history aiyoooooo not even partially done tamil aso!sure mati.went imm for nth but had a laughter of life.hahs pity him.n i was observing all the wae.hahs sb stare stare but i heckcare..too awful hahs.jk.i seriously wish there's no scl!yar toodles

look at the sky

2009-07-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

IGNORE THIS POST IF U WAN NTH MUCH HERE TO ENTERTAIN
fridae was ok as it was.but saran there to accompany.the guy is fun.he was complainin abt a gerl it seem like so many ppl hate her wonder y.i cant judge her according to character but she is always surrounded by a circle of frewm for her.but from looks i cld tell she looks fake but it mite be jut her way.to be honest i was not laughing heartlyy.i laughed cuz ppl did.i kind of felt guilty i laughing at a gerl whom i duno at all.i ve did that b4 but yeah not to such an extent.i m sorry to her thou she has not heard us.it's not right to laugh over a person and all.bhanu was a gerl she nvr fail me to impress.i was wondering hw was she a sc but yeah she kinda gd.wen we were talking stuffs she was like roaming away not listening in silent.i could just see her like penetrate thru her or sth. she is like me in that me but i act to blend with ppl but she's solid twice a garnet.she has a define wae she dont change for ppl in these things from wart i c...i miss talking to her..such a soft flower one of those ppl i adore from so far...i tend to adore who are close to me like nisha but bhanu is so differ.hahs okok u ppl wld ve been bored after my comments on soft flower.
i was watering the plants n saw the sky.i wished i was at a open field n stare at it all dae of my lfye n lie there n live my life.i look up i feel so mysterious like i cld relate me.n wen i look at it i see so much yet i got nth to put in words.sth i feel so deeply that is failed to be expressed.i find so much in there i juz wana go touch it and stay there look at my life .its so rich with feeling and i feel it's has message for me but the message cant be sent.i swear i wld stare at the sky n fall in love.its so mysterious n interesting everytime i discover sth..
ohh yar todae i fought w.my sis!it was fun to the core!hahs not on anger but we did it on purpose.my dad was like aiyooooooo y gerls ah so naughty from morn.i was heckcare.no fun like spending life with her.but im so packed with work n my importance to frewns has reduced the time w.her.i missed sleeping w.her i talks n yeah just my moments with her it all seem so short.i wish i throw away all the stuff and spend w.her one whole dae.my dad was like jamunah i thought u were a gd gerl i nvr knew u were so sutti n stuff. i was laughing away my sis n i ve the same naughty look wen we play. the awkward part my dad duno my true self.i like part n puzzle.wen dad's home im like the daddy gerl im all wat he wants n went his gone its gerls dae.i would talk talk n talk like a train to mom n she would listen all the wae n sae her comments n stuff sis is ignored n yeah.im sutti w.sis she make life so colourful her insainity makes me go weird.
dam long post i sae if u ve read successfuli congratz!a talk on feeling i cal a heart bin.

strangled and tangled

2009-07-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

hillo!GREetings to all.jus wana speak abt scl.a very weird dae..dnt how terrible just can it go!?eng was another terrible stuff boring i started drawing in my books under table.i noe ms.yee she dam sian surely wana trap us.i gt caught but i knew the ans.hahs after all im seeing her for 1 and a half yrs for nth!sci was so so too.geo was as usual i nvr enjoy it.lucky with frewns dae went quicky.tamil was dam freakin bad todae.i got so dam low!she's marking us so strict from A i ould fail!nvr imagine this dae would come...ten jonathan was cinema freak.gt to accept was funny.ipw discussion went well except the [art the sec4 enter i feel dam weird!jia hui nnic wait for his assignment we late so they went off to lunch.we went canteen sth miserable happer sth till now i cant handle but glad i ve frewns whom cooled off so easily.i ve to admit i nvr knew saran,nisha,bhanu's relationship was so strong to such an extent,quite amazing and surprising.bunz was like apologing for nth.nice gerl lah she.went library after jh and nic return.b4 goin sth happen in nisha's lfye.ten library big gang was there.talking to nic i sae shit lor mr.t laugh damn i stared at laught bck.cuz i noe in my grp i use that alot.as much as im trying to forget those daes dam when he laughed it haunted me like hell! i was like shit..but nice lah mr.t remember my 'shit lor'hahs kinda funny.sme ppl stare n i knew y big reasons to sae.gg ten gt hw

let it take me

2009-07-01T18:14:00.005+08:00

i hate it when days start like so fab and end bad..scl was super duper fun .i laughed alot and had times of heaven thou ppl were laughing at me cuz i struggled to read sunny sundae n little pink pills!so not my fault it was like a tongue twister to a nervous me.thou i m not in mood now,the laughter makes me smile.thou my lips says words wish all hate me my heart regrets saying.i ve been thru that n i know how it hurts.now,its a total oppo n yet it hurts but differently..being an escaper,i cant face reality i wana fly away but you dun gif me the wings.i see u ,n yr looks explain so muchh yr yearning but i cant devote myself.maybe i changed n maybe we are not meant to be. i ve a heart that says yr rememberance of those memories is obstructing me to fade away.n even wen yr ready ur sort of not n yr strong determination or eu being stubborn is stopping u. i seriously duno.u say that if.going w.her is wat u want ten do it but yr alway welcome. i guess u cant take this relationship an easy stuff.im sorry but i ve to speak what i ve been thinking of all these daes.i had made new frewns but i wana take bck my words...
i wana talk abt scl n hw it was todae cuz sth happen but arg not nw
and pls don't talk abt this issue
im sick of it
i dont wana hide anymore

don't put words into my mouth

off alone in heart

2009-06-29T15:56:00.002+08:00

hey ppl,dam meha u will be the one reading this!hahs so yr special greeting!=)
scl bck again...sleepy hahs .and yeah teacher's naggy sth i wont sae i miss! dae was good.bunny n hira were there smiling.dam i nvr speak to bunny oni signal dam sad...lucky she sms.happy nce gerl..n xiao xi seem differ but smehw adored her todae..not her normal behaviour.she was settled todae but was dam natural like she came from heaven or sth..no offence xiao xi!but more tan that meha was glowin w. ear ring suit her shiny teeeth n sparky eyes.natural loooks..the wae!lol apart frm that marcus sae my name as a cartoon.lol i sae f* word nvr mean it n=hope he nvr hear!n wow he noe my name!hahs duh dam lame.miss yee was jamunah will u dance i was arg!must i announce on my 2 left feet!!!!!!!!!!!boink boink hahs im not the kind wu entertain others..pity muchh!yar n nisha was gd love talking to her.yeah n atidiyae kolludae sing ortrae kanalae!omg meha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!lol pity u!i think surya fan..he is.lol dun fall ah!not nice =D she made it soo dam real!fuwootz!yeah n dnt was dam borin meha was he showin those muscles!freaking funny!n yeah locker meha n me talk on k...i think we shld kep these between us n not disclose to bunnny n hira..not for them*underage*hehe went home w.hira n nisha...i try to start up conversation tat all 3 cld speak but hira nvr response n i sort of went off to meha not on purpose lae..n yeah went off talking w.her dam addictive gerl

regret yr moves

2009-06-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

my sis cant lie-i noe that. you ve done that to me ard ten n now to her.you ve not hurt yr own kind cuz its yrs.i wonder if u knew how much of pain u had caused n how u made moments awkward. i cnt believe we fell in yr trap n each moment i regret u to be there all that 5 yrs all along u aint chANGE FOR THE GD.cnt u see,we caNT TELL but the fault wont leave you n you ve to be guilty cuz u played with our lfye.

n to *****
i hope you c my lurve(consent) 4 u
i just had to gif away my time to others
n not to you
doesn't mean we'r bein apart
u dun ve to poke me w.yr thorns
i m doin much

oh now to more clear things
1)i think my toilet atmosphere is makin me sick
wenever i tak a bath i feel giddy ,weak n i manage to change quick
n rest in the room..i wonder y comes ard.i hope it fades away soon
like sb faking a smile.
n i ponder y none called me from scl....

i cant judge them

2009-06-20T20:12:00.002+08:00

ok im now kind of tired.im in bed for days its feels like decades! im 14 nw n yet i dun ve the ability to judge ppl or smetimes understand wat they saying indirectly...smetimes their behaviour proves me complete hatred!n cuz me to broke n i stay away unless i ve to make a move..n one sec they r acting like we r frewns again after a battlefield!im not too trained in judging this.i hope i was.anyways im not done with ipw!aaahhhhh it seems like none bother abt it n im carrying the load i hope sb share de load.

sicker

2009-06-17T15:42:00.002+08:00

arg..im telling u i lurve to get to sick but maybe not this time ard!gosh!i felt my head's gona burst or sth!n i woke up everyone at 5am!i vomit twice!its was from my mom to sis to me!glad my dad escape!i m so greatful that i went to see doc so early!phew,n my kindergarden teacher is still working in the clinic!she thought im sec3 as always!hahs n she sae i nvr change abit!duh!i cant grow thinner or shorter or change to princess!lol.so yeah sis ,me,dad go c doc.she sae my sis n i damn tall near dady height!but im more average .she sae my sis looks like pri 6 or sec1!her mass is 49.5!near 50kg!the doc sae not to worry my sis is healthy cuz she has the height.hahs mine aso okae lah me n my sis one few kg differ!even in mass she near me!aiyo sian!the doc sae im not that plum.me n my sis adult mass.what she meant is still a mystery.arg, i gt pile of hw to du..oh n nisha u noe th usa its a pandi i telling u i wrote a huge message sae im traditional blah blah not interested but nvr sae frewn ..the pandi sae understand but the usa will wait forever!rama!cnt it be any simpler!ok gt to take rest.toodles

trip to sentosa

2009-06-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

okae back im kinda tired so sian to upload photos.tok cable car from harbourfront to sentosa .i planned to go sentosa purely to see cineblast n 4d magix!but there was some confusion n they tok a package..which cost alot!N actually i enjoyed the trip at underworld n most important log ride!rockz!i wana elaborate but to lazi..but die die must try again!too exciting to miss again!i wld ve enjoyed it better if personally sb nvr come..serious de person u think it is ..its not the one im referin to.its a manners to invite..and if its rejected nth to be down abt.yr appearance was made cuz of sb u had to come...u gt to play along ten!u tok get in de mind that it was purely for that sb n not for you though its gd if you had enjoyed it.but its not you who made de plan and u dun ve to repeat that it was no use though log ride rocked even parents agree!by repeating it nth gona change just u gona hurt me more!does not mean we disapproved yr ideas u ve to be naggy..it was small complains at difer tiimes that had me jumping...apart from that mom had out of blue sore throat so sad..no voice..apart from that,i loved my dady n uncles jokes and how they feel riding in bus since it had been yrs they tok bus n i tell u they were cunning!they had old memories relishing their youth soul!hahs they played in de bus pressing the bus bell for no reason!i enjoyed that moment w.them.they were nt like us gerl going bla bla but i prefer hearing to the past young life n how they had bus travelling daes w.their dad-my grandpa.i wish my grandpa was alive.every time my dad talks abt him its his a superhero like a real man a brave soul n with a heart for kids !i would call this GOSH!HIS ONE REAL MAN!hahs sad i had no opportunity to c him..i noe my dad love him alot n miss him lke hell .the way his words flow tell alot abt their bond.okok out of grandpa story..so yar came bck.
i maintained a distance n im glad i did
maybe i haved changed
i have understood that u shld care for one
not fall though im not fully over the fact
oh
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SPEcial EDITION
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hAHS i swear this can cme real handy!my real experience over years!
i realized n ve studied that those who are borned on 12 of any month arereal determined ppl
n i bet u cant fight w,them n even of u did u will end satisfying the person's need or watever he/she had thheir eyes on.even if escape from that u mite notice if u gave tem sth instead they were nvr completely gd w.it!old or young all the same...trust me they mite want a thing n u reject it wont be shockin if 3mths later they had it!unless they set their set on sth else!its very true!
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ok apart frm these crap i read one's bs. n im glad that de sb get the fact ppl change n no matter that sb try to cheer the things up.we just ve to our own time!n im sure happy that sb knew that ge/she mite be the reason for the change!well for me,you sure are that crap no doubt!

quit a crap i ve written!

false alarm!

2009-06-14T13:19:00.002+08:00

hahs omg !thinking abt it now !dam freakin funny!my sofa was at the sofa all that time!the worst part i pouring my emotion like emo queen!hahs but since my mom deactivate my sim card i cant use so ppl do reply mein mom hp!hahs lucky sian!in quite alot happen but rough cover up ok!todae family outing gona go with couz family to sentosa.gona leave soon n wil mayb tell tmrw on wat went on!oh n nisha you noe the us payan i sae suddendly nvr talk i think ran away alr!that pandi talk again!whoopee!hahs happy lar hahs good buddy!though the pandi want me as his allu i treat buddy nth more.ok toodles gg

lost handphone

2009-06-13T19:43:00.002+08:00

I Have lost MY HANDPHONE...
nisha you asked to sae wat happen for manner n
now i have good miserable one! but just that i cant tell you
cuz my hp repeat MY HANDPHONE HAS BEEN MISPLACED
BY ME!

god, till now wishing none of this of happen!
i don't have tears streaming down my face
but im still in de trauma of my LOST HP!
pls i noe none of u guys can find my hp but
it wont hurt for fake hopes.i went jurong point mall-
new extension.i was holding my hp all de wae even in the 24
hrs NTUC!i was waiting for mom @ the lucky draw box.but
i still am not fully convinced that my hp is gone!it just cant be!like dust
memories of it wont erase away itself!i was in de car,my dad tuning for my
fav.song!i was answering saying yes & no.all that time i had no doubt i was holding on
to my hp!now i feel im near the verge of tears..it was de one hp only one i love to
core!my mom call starhub in inform after calling my hp(it was in silent mode!)
i wana now list down all i ve shared with my hp but no point ,its not gona run n come back to
me!if it had life pls ccome bck to me!im still in the trauma of losing it.one small tiny mistake one small careless one super tiny neglection just shld not end this wae!at1st i thought i misplaced in dad's car!i stopped n check but he reported sae missing!it just be illusion!!!!i felt my hand pressin against the screen of MY HP!its mine none can grab it away like tat!it was the only hp that held my secret stories not even known to nisha!i had so much with it.....just too much to gif away like tat!no cant be!my mom saes sb wld ve tok it alr!
no!!!no wae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i swear!!!!!!!i dun believe her !she's lieing lieing not true not at all!!!!!!!not even a word!i still believe still ve my hope its smewhr in 24hrs ntuc at customer service sme kind soul gif it or better in daddy's car!i demand he checks again i wont blame him but just smewhere he just mite ve not checked...........
i know n sense that smewhr my hp is n it wil cme bck to me smehw..
too precious to lost and

cuz i still do believe in DESTINY...

get that

2009-06-11T16:37:00.009+08:00

They can't tell
me who to be
because
I'm more than they see.
boy,i wish de next 6 months school is better!
random post not much public to say..
spending my dreadful days w.homework and going out w.family

not her

2009-05-29T19:42:00.002+08:00

well PTC yeah okae..lucky mrs.ng for me n she was sort of praising n since dont remember my last yr position good for me!hehe he was satisfied alrite.but my mom was like dun be so happy i nvr tell yr daddy u slacked..i was like arg!escape to esso daddy,mommy,sis.tok de chance ask all my fav.stuffs!hee this de oni time i ve!n yup came home slack...beyonce new song veri nce i gt addicted to it!oh yup nw online n came to realise db's gf whom i thought was -was actualli a frewn.n the gf is another gerl wen i saw it..i was like not her!!i admire her frm sec1 but db n her is bad combination!hahs another sec i was y m i so irritated!n i calmed myself..oom..oom..say it!hahs tc ten

last dae b4 june holidaes

2009-05-28T18:26:00.003+08:00

boink dae was ok actually better!hehe
well actually started with hira's uno game.we planned to play against each other!but u noe ppl here there come n play.we were well alittle unhappy.but i was like ah nvm the more de merrier.hira was alittle sad cuz all she wanted to du was play w.me alone thats y she brought the cards!so blah blah finally i summon my courage n told nisha n she understood so we played 2 games and bck to ppl comin in n join in.yeah then it was recess n hmm blah blah not til we were in de snack stall.COMMOTION!nisha n i were waiting n nisha was talking obt h1!n suddendly h1 behind us !hahs u just ve to witness it !HUMOUROUS!hahs so it was science yeah not really on studying...ipw!kn was dam irritating its my hp n i nvr gave to her!btw!im a tamil gerl so wat u expect tl songs in my hp!the!use yr brains!well maths ten it was!uno again n mrs yee came show us result blah blah!oh!as we clean classroom i sweep the floor !arg so dusty!hahs evil sia hira was like calling me aunty seriously i was gona strangle her!but the best was rhamesh n rhys!hahs they reminded me of 1/1!sweet memories!rhys n i kick-kick!fun fun!n rhamesh was pulling table wen i was like moving them!all these just like 1/1!fuuwootz x3 for them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!they made the dae big time!
then after scl wen to c mrs.vasuki!for ipw...arg i ask stupid questions!then she will call bck for painting tl classroom!xciting!hehe!after walk our wae to lunch w.frewns!finally my first one!while walking nisha was left w.afrin...arg thats very bad of meeeee..........apologies..bunz,hira,me were like quarrelling blah blah....lunch was miserable nvr buy food frm that stall!nisha sae sorry but i did not mind its not her fault.jade n cheryl came by n sae on 1/1!we all agree hw v miss the class n how the current class we hate.hahs okok too much.bunz was liike 1/2 rockks!i gt so emotional shouted sort of!hahs.barney left after lunch.we made our wae to scl n talking crap as usual!hehe art club did hands n we talk crap.nisha was dwn but after she was cheered up!good!so draggy daes end with anan..heehe nisha!!!!!!!

after scl
arg came home told ma on position as usual blah blah as the birds sing.....n freaking hungry
oni gt curry all ppl eat alr!arg bad!!so ate watever there was--edible stuffs :)n talking to ma sae tmrw 4.15 meeting she was like i told u to change n told sis got apppointment at 2!!i was like i dont care!!!!!i told first 3 weeks ago not the doc!!!!!!so u must change her appointment not mine!!!watch it!so i was badly angry frustrated in an unexplaineed wae!my anger broke in screams n shouts of my sis!in 2min!she close room door my bag n hp was missing!like she tok it 4 sure!so i was lunatic n raging in anger n i kick the door shouting open **** n threatened her n got so angry wen she refused to open n wen she did!i was like where's my hp !she was saing crap!next sce,i took a hanger n smack her(violent)n she cried n gve me scolding me away!i locked the room n used my laptop!while my sis was in anger n tears!i dun gif a damn!uncontollable anger...n it wen for long until she apologies n i accept n told her we settled soon!i guess i NVR made up 1dt if i broke into a fight w.anyone !i wait for them to spill it!i was not totally angry at her but the events b4 it built up my sense of anger n her actions n behaviour made me explot in to a bomb!im soory alrite but i was that angry n it was not from heart yeah!so yar big dae big commotion.longest post u sae

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2009-05-26T16:28:00.002+08:00

my friend nisha

if a frewm can come across a distance for you
without thinking on the flying time
she always has to be
and ought to be appreciated
no matter
how much you
might quarrel
w.the friend in the hardest time
she just has to be
and it must not be
forgotten or forbiden
even when
it's time be go apart.....
~a true soul

juju frewn

2009-05-24T21:42:00.004+08:00

ok dae read book quite nce.....
i stilli cant the guy is died just like tat
having d gerl
god i feel as if im her
nvr was i so conected to a story
she had a gd soulmate n lose it in a spilt sec
thats very sad
her struggle in recovery moves me
i wish i will b nvr in d situation
...........
okok apart frm that chat with juju
she rocks as ALWAYS
none can beat her!
i talk abt frewns n stuff
n how i feel nwdaes
n she understood me just like
that!with no words against my opinion
agreeing w.me all the wae
n wen i told her how i felt
she gave me courage
n nw i feel so much better
whom i feel i was green in envy with
is no more
hahs i m sooo happy
ard 2 ve said that and said im better
i feel veri proud of it....
hehe.not a jerk im hahs
n i told her how i m tangled up
n how im finding waes to escape
n whom seem to me like godess
i thank her big time

im a new person
when i was asleep i dreamt of nightmare
when i was awake i lived the nightmare
now its no more
she has been in n out my journey
n every moment w.her i had
i cherish them
treasure them
every moment was precious
she still remember the new year song from kuruvi
i sang!!!!!!!!!!!!hahs say
sweet memories
n my voice nice
hahs u see i CAN
sing.gee!
in the agitating m0ments
there was
HER

complex

2009-05-22T15:04:00.002+08:00

todae was k.
started alittle a differ 3 gerls meeting.
had talk abt looks w.nisha
adhira was gd
hmm watch movie
did IPW!complete
during maths,haiz the
maths teacher come ask draw go one
competition..i noe i wont win but
its good worth trying
nisha dun want
so i tried to encourage
ended in vain
nisha wen hot tempered
alrite so i didnot
want to get into de issue
rather best to zip it up
the ma teacher okae
but she like lok me sae wat sportive
i thought it was bad
its like putting my frewn at a
lower range
i wanted to sae
doesn't mean she dun want
she's not SPORTIVE
duno her
back off...
but it was all
wriiten in my heart
cuz teacher
just has to be respected
steve and jia hui
was the ones wu
recommended us
grr.....no comments
___________
and worst all
it has 66%confirm im
NOT going to camp
gt to check'
there 2 class gathering at
west coast park
6respect....2/1
6r-6th june
2/1 -???????
hope they dun collide
havin them one side
NOT HAVING TO GO
IS ANOTHER SIDE
ASK MAMA SAE
CANT!!!!
I TOLD OKAE TO CLASS
IM TRYING TO
CONVINCE
ITS SO HARD!
THERE'S NO FREEDOM
BUT I LIKE IT.....
IM afraid to sae no
cuz i cant c the atit
faces

Dream aka campkgscl

2009-05-17T10:04:00.003+08:00

this event was th first one to occur
time:7.55am
day:17 may 2009
i was excited about this dream and send sms to nisha but despite my effort the sending failed.
reason unknown.
but i taken back by the stragety that happen after this..
but i guess it wont hurt to share with u(nisha)
so here is the story -bluetooth from hp
____________________________
Nisha!i had tis fabul0us dream!u n i g0 camp!we were ten dismissed wr r sup0se 2 g0 dwn by u n0e gt wal gt r0pe tat 0ne.at d0wn k n g00gle sme 0ther ppl playin.suddenly i gt dam scared my face cn c tat k as0 saw frm b-l0w.u n i g0 dam sl0wly he starin up @us.ten he l0k at us n sae bayantatu allam p0tum.we scream m0mmy.we cme we sae sme teasin xpresi0n n we bgan 2 run 2 to scl (dnt blck) i ask u y runin s0 far u sae u fel tey f0l0win us.i turn n saw indeed!we hid smewhr dream finish!its a mixture of scl,camp and k n g! but smewhr i fall into the fish pond and u continue running.
THE REST IS UNWRITTEN
............................................
LIKE A BLANK PAGE
WAITING FOR TO ME
BUT IM REACHING FOR STH IN THE DISTANCE
I JUST GOT TO PUSH MYSELF
SONG LYRICS HAHS

survival game

2009-05-17T09:40:00.004+08:00

omg!!!!
-----this is true------

pls pay attention,
basically i was eating wawa biscuit at my room.i placed the wrapper on the table and i turned it was filled with ants!and out of blue my cloth got torn(sort of)so i when to toilet and came out and stared at the window duno y after ages..to my astonishment,i saw ambulence.and i a grp of residents who does tai chi every morning along the track beside the canal.from the window i can sesomething was awkward in the air.something was wrong and real bad.i felt it.the residents dont seem ok.in a snap, a person from the policecar or ambulance not sure ran towards the canal...he saw the missing fences which act as divider between the water and track.a lady frm the tai chi group has fallen into it!in the tense atmosphere,the guy ran into and drag her .in time the sickbay came and she was placed and was attached with oxygen musk!she was breathing hard,i saw her grasping for her.ppl were running towards the location.soon 3-4 policecar came.they help to avoid crowd.the ambulance left the place sirening.the police were standing there pacing/&bobbing up and down.the grp of ppl were gathered and i guess they were investigating.they haven left the sight.yup not yet.the damaged fences has not been replaced or disturbed for now.
my first sight of an event form start to the end.
this event seem unusual.i have witnesses so many
but this was like god wanted me to see it
cuz the events which led me to see this incident
happened so quickly and in sequences
which make me feel awkward and
i expected sth to forthcome.....

A history record
Day 17 may 2009
Time 9 to 930(from the time the incident happen to when the abulance left the place)
Location Pandan gardens canal(known black canal)

quiz

2009-05-16T16:17:00.008+08:00

does What kind of book character are you
Mystery character

Oooh good one. The mystery character
is the one who appears in certain books - usually their past is shrouded in
mist. Mostly good, though somewhat naughty at times, the mystery character
heroic or evil things from time to time... this may include the magic
girl or
boy, and is usually one of the last people to become friends with
the hero on
their quest. Mystery character may have some conflict with the
hero from time to
time, even a internal conflict of which side they would
rather be on - good or
evil - sometimes the hero even falls in love with
them. Mystery character is
also very quiet and graceful, and might have a
conflicting past they don't like
to talk about - for fear of tearing up an
unhealed emotional scarring and
appearing weak.

who am i
Shy You keep pretty much to yourself, and mostly open-up to those who are
really, really close to you - your family and best friends - which also means
you're really trustworthy and loyal. You tend to be quiet and sometimes get
embarrassed easily

hahs nth to do.so im dragging the days by doing
quizzez.hahs

hard wrk

2009-05-15T21:47:00.004+08:00

fuuwootz xams are over!
yipee.hahs.anyways changed blogskin!love it!took 3hrs to set it!!!!!
the skin had potential.however the dull color and small fonts were sme weak points.
so i slowly carefully change them !god u can see the changes when u see the original one.
honestly,i think i did a great job!.hahs ok hoh too much.
ppl dun u ever copy this skin or u will have to face me!its hardwrk damn hradwrk!!!!!!got it.
tired sian.com have viruses god!com was slower than a turtle.okae gg my eyes need rest!
wrote in point form so dun lok so messy bear w.it

inspore

2009-05-14T12:27:00.005+08:00

damn title.......
since nisha was takin quiz i did too..i did this n its soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo true every single thing.abt me!hahs best so far!

give in...

2009-05-07T15:57:00.002+08:00

finally found time to blog!fuuwootz!xams=stress
well,a lot happening nowdaes....
i nvr speak to hira duno how many daes
and now we sms each other so tmrw die die must go w.her
history-flop!!!!!!shit i like de subject n i flop!cld not complete the paper!god!worst of all,i panic=wriggy handwritting-praying hard she can read my paper.....pls do!
ma paper 1 so-so
sci-okie
lit-okie
bunz nvr cme.......
oh n in bus todaE a plump malay baby was sitting oppo me
god she was damn freaking cute!!!!!!
such an entertainer
she laid she played hide n seek ...
she siad hello to a chinese bside!
he reply
her acts were too cute for me to kep away my laughter
everyone in the bus were laughing away!!!!!!!like we r in circus
ten the baby gerl saw me omg!!!she said helo!!!hahs i said hi
the gerl damn sweet i going time she sae tata!!!!!hahs me wana c her
again!

B.D.O

2009-04-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

todae was an awkward day.like todae was talking,helping,getting comments n embarrassinng infront of especially all bois.cant it b any worst.hate it but fun hahs.dont exagerate kays

comments

HM:hey u noe sth u look similar to gizem!
jamz:oh okie {soft}
NIC:hi.yr sci gd ah.hmm then give sme action look say hey u u very action u noe..
jamz:too late for a response
hahs later saw gizem.lol
in my opinion im sooooooo not like gizem!!!!!!!way differ..okay lah i seem quiet n
dont really speak alot in class n went u
bully instead of bullying i like scared----im soooo not just a idotic reaction.
shld check out w.rce wat a bully i m.
hahs.im like a freaking talkative when it comes to home n close frewns!
i gt action ah!?okay mayb i did alittle hahs!i dont but i act like i so to gain confidence and stand infront of others and face them.i hope nic nvr mean it!
omg tamil im getting slower bunz is equally good!scart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so competitive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

other d ten,help jj,dr.
embarrsased myself infront of k,gk,thi

betrayer

2009-04-23T16:03:00.002+08:00

DAYS gone by the wind.adhira sick but came scl im suppose to go w.her home n i forget in case sth happen...how could i forget about forget to follow her n the stuffs i must pass to her!ahh!so irresponsible!apart from that,had a dae w.nisha,buunz,mun yen,mun fong.they are actually very nice.hahs.db actually do not suck.upset cuz i saw my fat hopes falling down but i can retrieve myself from this soon or later depend on time.....hmm ten pity much nth on for now.
-tuition hw
-ma ws
-sci ws
-tl compo

what im not suppose to be.....

2009-04-17T19:25:00.002+08:00

school was as usual.........

secret code revealed mr.t caught :(
stuck among k,google and th!!!
tissue n competition^_^
unkown guest who says hello--shld be hira

alot happen but just cover sme stuff....mr.t had a class code and it was revealed.it was a sad thing but i ven nth to comfort on as much as i wished too.1st stunned mr.t talking!i mean nth but after nisha's comments.it was all wae differ.well my perspective of seeing things.bck to story since i was stunned n surprised for god sake i knew whose that person and my mind got blank that moment.i asked hira then she say.arg!shld there be any cure for this sure i must i ve it.

after that going home alone.yucks hate that part and its worst that i must be the oni gerl surrounded by k,google and th!so not my dae..walking n walking and all i saw was k n google infront.i prayed so hard they left my sight but let's say it was vice-versa.dor the 1st time i heard k voice loud n clear sad nisha shld b there.k gt 25 for a ma test...hahs.lol.scared,i rushed like sth to the front n to my horror infront was th!ahhhh n fora great nightmare k n g walked fast and catched up.behiind n infront all covered no way escape.all stare!i was sooooooo stuck.yips then k n g left.phew but left w/th.forunately bus came n flew from d place...!!!!!!!

tissue competiton tmrw i so don't wanna go my ideas dont even occupy half a drawing block!n tmrw i don't wana wake at 7!xams ard de corners smemre!hai got like pile of things to study...i think im gona bring my sis color pencils,crayons n markers if mom buy...boink busy busy week...spoke to tuition teacher she told me to take A maths but hmm it will really help if i wana be a doc whose doing studies related to human body.but hmm no loss taking it...well tata ten gona develop tissue box design n make a check if d guest is hira....

wat a great dae

2009-04-14T18:06:00.002+08:00

todae start well.maths that sb wu i will cme across eveydae during maths stared again...yucks n nxt min i will look smewhere.part of lfye but i like it though i act im not.lol!ma had test i look away from nisha cuz i duno wat to talk how to talk!but i admire her for her communication skills she started a conversation!n yeah we went on....wonder how she does it!mayb i ve no guts n im alittle egotisic...so went blahblah n came recess n to eng..i kept quiet.saddam n chia ying talked all de wae...saddasm n rhys bully each other.saddam told sth to rhys i dun like so wat if he...u dun ve to sae it repeatly...just saying my opinion..saddam was saeing wana change sit i was okok watever.im not interested in tat.steve was extremely quiet well at least not like other days..i hate it.u cant expect a class to b perfect!there shld be some noise sth on always!i want steve to be himself again its better!tl i bully adhira singing song frm VA lol i was restless i was trying be awake n beating myself with bottle...lit i nearly slept nmrs.ng refered to me...lucky b4 all noe i woke..phew...nafa soso fail broad jump like again!!!!!since when-dun ask.ten sit up i was happy cuz nic did well i duno if my advice help lah but i was happy though he did better than me.hira was gd too so did nisha.shuttle run mine n nisha's shoe slip like sth!!!ah overall gd dae..im just soo xcited abt tmrw.i wish all our parents cld talk n bcome frewns!that wld be soooooo great.jus a wish....ahh oh n was talking to nisha she gave me the greatest comment!i mean i noe i average then she w/out even doing anything ppl stare @ me quite gd!lol she sae rebond then ppl c.as much as i wana coment on her i was distracted by ten....this comment was special cuz yesterdae in bkshop she said i was sappa-sad lar.nw like she made it up like that!lol though i noe none of the comments were true...!!!!lol i dun bother 2.after scl at sweet talk to indian gerls came askin for a sec 3 boi to nisha but i answered.ppl always caame to nisha for help cuz she seem welcoming!she yeah dae was gd.

change

2009-04-13T21:32:00.002+08:00

school was ok.
important events-sit change(sit at steve's x place)
steve n kristen gone...so sad i wish they were here at my group
now im leading every thing
my group use to be center of attraction now no more.i did well
in engaging cha ying n france if spelling wrong sorry;in communication.
i wished i cld owe the moment forever..though i was emo for weeks steve and grp always held the spirit up high.though i was not part of their fun i like to observe n being beside close enough to see it.now my group is like sillent killer in my hp.lol all i do is stare at rhamesh group side since i have no where to look...
i wish ms.yee put me behind in some place i find meaning...sound lke sth...but that shld work.

2 big daes

2009-04-09T19:16:00.002+08:00

----THIS PART IS NOT IMPORTANT--------

i had nafa 2.4km run sports dae on 8 April!so many things happen on that very dae!i wanted to blog but had to see doc!unwell......if i had gone earlier i wld ve nt run 2.4!on that dae make up with nisha with nic as the messenger!i was irritated by nic -the part he told i dun like one wu bully my frewn-referring nisha.1st-i nvr bully i can look like one but nvr did i bully!2nd-if u dun like ten dun talk lah!!!that's wat i felt that moment.i understand nisha is his close frewn but dun ve to support her by being bad to me!n than today he paste a pink flower in my sci textbook!i act blur though.once irritated once i saw de flower all frustration gone.2.4 was miserable i ran badly my shoe came out!so embarrassing!did not care.went home with adhira.once,at beginning i moved away from adhira-dun noe y.i now,i find her better in fact im comfortable ard her excluding sme facts.to hira sth i can do is if im irritated i tell straight to her.hey dun disturb can or nt i wana study n she shuts off a little disappointed though.but for sme reason i cant tell that to nisha..wonder y.n during nafa run nisha told i had ego but not vein or vain-watever wae u spell it.i mean she's the 1 wu started d conversation n we make up.but in my world i won't phrase my self as in ego gerl...i wld sae i dun wana go talk n she show face n attitude its sth i hate like hell.eg.when i called her after hanging hold dae with hira n called her she show face n sae call me for these only.i back off then.tats wat i meant.the same she felt abt me.she saes she cant take it if i tell sth bad.PLS PLS TAKE NOTE THAT THIS WAS NOT TO DIG THE PAST N BITTERNESS ITS TO XPRESS MY OPINIONS N IM NOT ACCUSING ANYONE ABVE!THEY r my FREWNS n this is me hopefully to me read in future...lol i guess.

apart from that from rubbish i wrote had art ah soso oni btw art i gt registered i gt the email new one saeing im registered!yaay.curently lfye is wae better than before.only that i feel that smebody shld stop praising themself way too much.....praise yrself to yrself not to others not all wana hear abt u....a little rude but surely that person wont read this.lol so no worries.phew.

IT's what i call the best

2009-04-07T17:50:00.002+08:00

morning was k as usual.had ma than pe.when going to ma class sb glance @me n when i walking off to pe that same person stare but longer this time.i turned my head away.i cant take it.daes in eng class is getting better not that much on emo.the heart attack game kind of make me lose was not so reserved.geo i wonder y she called me today also n worst called me jumanah!class edited it though.tamil was okie.lit ah kept drawing until moon car looked like clown car...went locker saw that stare person again!lucky ran off by then.hold for bhanu green cardboard duno y felt good that i did.@bustop,hira n i were talking about cars.she told me her dad look like that.i could not find a car that looked my dads'.when i saw one to my surprise its my dad!n i flew off in car.nvr expect it. lucky not many see if not its would have been way too embarrassing.phew!whole day kept on coughing like sth!lol rather than i feel daes are geting better but not any better for sb in my relations.i noe how that person feel cuz i undergo it but its more severe for this person. i feel sad alright i hope it won't hurt too much..the stare person i noe b4 i sory of neglect nowdaes.i hope sb wont wont stare n give attention to me. i dun wan a new beginning when i forgt abt it long ago.

SPOrts day & nightmare info

2009-04-03T21:13:00.004+08:00

fuwootz sports dae rock!i mean it was sooo much of pressure n ppl had already loss hope in me.ppl praying hard i don't drop the baton.being felt like a big loser out there 1st as engraved in medal is a big thing!to be honest,i did my best but it was not enough its bcuz of others that the team won!i was extremely happy.for more than 15min all that came out of my mouth was fuwootz i was like in de nine cloud.i duno y i was terribaly surprise nisha tolerate it!if i was her i wld ve been bored to dealth!instead she was happy with me n for me!y she rock!but its was weird like i did average or below but i was below the rest wu ran like sth were not even jumping abt winning!i guess i was really surprise,happy!so mixed but surely nxt yr not going in this sports!nisha saeing out of 8 mani ppl noticing me is weird but i dun really wonder y since i was the 1st runner.n nisha's talk abt sb-i was simply truely stunned!did i made sooo much impact!?y care soo much!?y wanna know?!n being negative is no wae good!y m i suppose to do.suffering like some worm n i cant afford to xplain y..n wen d circumstances weighs down im struggling to cope!if im so not that kind ten move away i cant just change in a blink cuz u want me 2!the quote below my email really xpress what i felt!sme opinions mite b true but i can alwayz change it upside down!watever it is i guess this medal meant alot to me n thats sure all thx to my team members-dominic,bhanu,marcus,jia hui,steve,inri and fazial*i think thats how u spell it!lol!

mormal mondae

2009-03-30T16:45:00.002+08:00

todae was normal.spent most time w/adhira.was quite sad nisha was not im my life todae that much.i thought she upset but history went she smiled i was soo happy!i was normal moody gerl as usual but her smile bought a hapiness within me suddendly i felt so happy.i nvr doubted y her name mean potrait~cing her smile even from far make me happy.kristen change place mr.t miss i think..cuz ms.yee ask to draw wat makes u happy he drew his gang n her.lol!i was surprise by her impact.i wish i can get bck cheery again!went out buy lit stuff was fun the last min was always fun especially todae!
i learnt
sb can b difer from chat to live
in this place i noe im average-loking but
smeplae sb(nisha u noe the us...)i m beautiful
lol that was seriously sth funny n i denied
cuz i noe!smetimes ppl have exotic taste!

differ perspective

2009-03-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

lot has been on many haf suffocated n it will d end on up coming tue.todae saw
performance i had my words on for sb n im really in mood od describin..indian dance rock though!im proud of them!

-ask tl teacher lost correction book
-ipw!!!nightmare mon must must giv
-tissue box competition
-art 50sentences n pics
-lost coursewrk cant find-reprint,change recipe
-tuition hw-by sundae
-sci sketch body n write
-history buy butcher paper
-lit do greek
-geo upcoming test!
-maths tue n thurs test(after scl)!
-tamil asses correction ,wb pg9,10
-ced rights to....

2009-03-21T16:56:00.001+08:00

ced-the right to ****ve to check w/hira
maths-project(magic squares)
maths-aslnlearn submit in edupost/edublog the copy of abve
maths-maths wrk hardcopy(sun)

eng-read up nexus(sun)
science-redo the drawing and mindmap
hme econ-recipe try(not now...)
geo-the ws!!!!!!(sun)
art-veggie drawing the competition sth on work safety........... (today)
tamil-the asses bl test1, and the newspaper thing(today)

100th homewrk

2009-03-16T17:49:00.004+08:00

eng-read up nexus sign report paper
maths-project(magic squares)meeting:scl,thurs?gotta check with nisha&jiafu
maths-aslnlearn submit in edupost/edublog the copy of abve
maths-acelearniing-2 tests
maths-maths wrk hardcopy
science-redo the drawing and mindmap
homecon-nutritional analysis,select recipe try,decision making
history-essay
geo-the ws!!!!!!
art-veggie drawing the competition sth on work safety...........
ipw-doubtcase
tamil-the asses bl test1,letter writting and the newspaper thing
ced-the right to ****ve to check w/hira

march mumbrella

2009-03-09T17:44:00.002+08:00

hahs my 1st march post.well daes has been okok.i feel my mom feel for me more tha ever.she has always been but nw showing a little and im lovin it every bit.i wish i could ran bck bck as small baby and fell into her arms.sweet the 1st my sis holded my finger my last finger her hand was that sized only.i was 5!nce feeling i want it bck.a soft,cold,lovely finger.moments of live.i wanna feel it again.my sis with 2 small bundles morelike foundtaiin.hahs cute lah she.now all grown up.the times where even if my mom scolded her i protected her like mom n feed her taught her played with her .the moments where she cried for me just for me for no one she cried.they are nce.nvr will forget these moments.very sweet i wish to feel it again all over.mayb it is only once that is so wonderful a feeling i cant describe. n nw here we are total oppo.life changed us over time.just suddenly thought over this.thinkin abt this make me smile..she one adore gerl.kk ,so sskip--skip nw todae dae was boring but not worst daes.well best umbrella alla alla.hahs.especially the guy wu teASED ME @the snack shop hahs he ran in de rain n i laughed so badly i cant take it.n thatperson at bustop was like a gerl nvr spare umbrella hahs.th epart i turn and stare with BIG BIG eyes .funny hash adhira more worst.oh boi seniors are fun i wish to make frends with that kind giggling with reason.n oh yar duno wat wen into me-stupid dump me!i got bored @ ced class and without realising i was praticing how to stare n creating dreamworld situation.praticing hw to stare if i dun like person walk by and kristen saw it!!!!she was like u hate mr.t is it. i was shit nono!!!!!!!maluuuuuuuuu!!!poink poink so yeah b

2009-02-28T21:07:00.001+08:00

Alanis Morisette - Orchid
Me, and my helmet such an un-conventional kid
All intense and kinetic, at best tolerated from afar
Not yet arrested, and by that I mean betrothed
though a start I am newly courted
I've just not been trusted with alters

I'm a sweet piece of work, well intentioned yet disturbed
wrongly label-ed and under-fed, treated like a rose as an orchid

My friends, as they weigh in, get understandably protective
They have a hard time being objective
So inside we cancel each other out

I'm a sweet piece of work, well intentioned and unloved
unlabeled and misunderstood, treated like a rose as an orchid

You've brought water to me, making sure my bloom rebounds
you know best of what my special care allows

So I've lived in my blind spot
thought myself usual when I'm not
and your garden is a nice spot
as long as it is brave and where you are

For this sweet piece of work, high maintenance and deserted
I've been different and deserving, treated like a rose as an orchid
Sweet piece of work, overwhelmed un-observed
I've been bowed down to but so misread
treated like a rose as an orchid

sisters short time

2009-02-28T16:19:00.003+08:00

i realise im avoiding my sis cuz of workload si i spent short time with her...we drew and colored.hee
hahs nce ah!lol.so yar simple sweet moments i observed her enjoyed with her!
homework is like hell i haven finish compo,art and all blah blah.haiya.Ten previous nite chatted with annan as usual ask question on researrch in the talked crab like hair,appearance,our family n blah ten wen offline.hahs weird though but entertaining.fun chatting with ppl u nvr spoke.hahs
hmm,todae i got to wash shoe since mom runing nose.im like ar must i....scl daes have been bored i indulging myself in music it seeems like they understand me and put my feeling into words so i sink in to it.grp change on fri-sucks.no new friiend n ms yee was like perfect combination.i was like shit!n tl teacher is making me suck in tl i don't like her the wae she express herself and thing i tell u wwanna slap so u can see my most arrogant,ugly,attitude face which ppl feel like slapping on her lessons!nowdaes im hating ppl around me i dun want them avoiding them eg adhira i duno y i dont hate her jus tat my life is getting miserable im slacking i dont see the fun i had b4 nw pressure is hard on me and its happening fast n not my wae n my anger is xpressed in another form.nowdaaes,i liked to talk to bhanu than anyone seeing her jus make me so happy.

[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]

reaally suit her not what i imagined hw it looked though itr was really soft....
i guess myself now so if im upsetting u ppl i apologise i got to retrieve myself

my normal birthday

2009-02-26T18:20:00.003+08:00

hey ppl its my birthday but yeah normal little too normal.wish it was better but yeah since when did i had a birthday that made me happy even i create excitement it was never built up.so don't bother im like its my biirthdae-whatever!i was i duno not in mood not my day.i want to forget this birthdae...except the part where afrin n swasthi buy presents-i mean i smehw feel afrin more closer this yrs and swasthi special all those yrs amd surprisingly they tok the effort to buy-no offence on others but getting from other class friends excites me and made me happy!thanks to them!hate mrs.vase she make me slack n prata was on the verge of naking but faded off in thin air.adhira was not happy start of the day so yeah u can c the hw the day bgan.nothing much well though nth much i must appriciate those who those time to wish me at morning very sweet and thx you ppl for wishing.
~a simple birthday a normal dae nth special~
a dae i wanna forget...wished i never came to scl..its was like dieing in cold blood.no offence on anyone.wished by monday sb do grant my wish...

where are we leading?

2009-02-17T18:11:00.002+08:00

well, i hope it does not collide it ends successfully and when i turn back and look back i wanna remember the the pain i endure the great amount of happiness i shared how i irritated my friend and most of all the talks with nisha....well,I'm waiting but we shall have to review the present so shall we?
lol.sounded like nut at top dun noe maybe just maybe INRI was right i was indeed hyper but not for the reason the told-i dun ve one;none will;not my preference;still i run away.well,morning a little Little time with adhira.h1 started a conversation wanting my response ^_^ oh will i...i stare at adhira that girl says ah just shut up lah he he i dunno...no my fault.maths went up,teacher never come..we(nisha and i )as usual indulge ourselves in juicy gossips well more of feelings for XXX.well,HMM was fun i guess that is why our bond is quite strong in my opinion.p.e-5 rounds running shocking i nvr felt like i just ran 5 rounds in fact i wanted to ran more... ten i came to knew about k lines ten i was like its a intro running for months just not moving and i was like i will punch it if it don't -to nishA.SHE FOUND it funny surprisingly she thought abt it even Geo..ten recess,k friend was officially addressed as p.e man!tat's it nisha started linking.lol but still the pro is HERE!BUT i dunno if i like i will change like hell so cross our fingers not.swasthi somehow i saw her Nice pure side of her...she is tough but like get along and Ur stuck ~forever~.literature the boredom world dunno y she write a place to b happy so NOT!pity,nic gt caught twice i sad..under no means!it was like picking on him.bad bad no like!well,the adhira n me is no no today suppose to go alone with her in d end did not!worst i promise damn me nvr will promise upon my future!but i had fun time i must care also for her welfare but...i cant hold on friendships...do ya i wan a lasting happiness!dun give me a worst one I'm wishing just this...BTW,my first song white horse swift Taylor NOW tats wat i feel from heart especially the part" i will find someone who treats me well..."
~STAY FOREVER~

im lost once again

2009-02-13T16:23:00.003+08:00

kk todae dae was sad but nisha did made up.friendship dae brought item for nisha,adhira,mr.t,deryl.then nic was like y nvr buy for me.i was lost for words...tmrw mr.t birthdae must wish!ten talked alot to nisha.ma test results was nightmare.mr.t is running away i can feel the differ but i dun want to pull bck or watso ever.h1 was smehw coming the same wae as nisha.and i was like tell tell she nvr did.it was like the god gave the opportunity so many times but she ignored but at last h1 gave a killing look!pro man!happy for her!i duno where im leading i ve vision but no motives of moving.is like being lost in a world.i dun wana lose the race.it scares me every moment like its my shadow.it creeps me up to death...btw,the dream it was wednesday-wonderland dream.how i wish to dream again that.so sweet that i could fall for it.i think i noe the person. even if i noe the person i wont even sae..^_^cuz frm wat i noe the sb is sb's(girl) ANNAN!from our scl aso scary....surely the sb wont fall so no worries..though i wish i made an impact.....dreams are just dreams that are meant to be kept.i think im obessed or sth cuz i heard if u think abt sth/sb so much u will dream abt that thing.so yar here.. it goes too sweet to reject i just hope its not too sweet to kill..

ps-i went net to search for pic that llok similar to my wonderland.!!!!!!i could not find any i guest its too special.hahs!!

brief

2009-02-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

okay this post is going to be brief as today's event were brief just like a beginning of something....well,INRI shifted place Amanda was replaced.somehow, i found Amanda calmed me down and loosen the atmosphere...so spoke alot to Mr.t and i sounded like a very opened person i said you just blushed!lol.quite fun though.ced was memorable i know nisha's is going to blog but i thought expressing my opinion wont hurt as its MY BLOG!One of that things that really caught my attention was we don't control what we can and suffer controlling what we can't.and the example of sth we cant control-friendship.its hard to explain as I'm rushing for time....at that point of time i thought may be she is right no point holding on both ends when they don't meet.but i dun wanna lose 2 if i did i would rather lose both. now,i thought whoever cant take it as it unbearable i dun want you or her to suffer with me.you are not that bad person and you don't deserve this that's for sure.from today onwards,i promised i will try not to force my thoughts into others if letting go is the choice let it go...i don't wanna talk about it. just let it go with the flow.here the problem is not who is to blame but to solve sth that evolves around us...other than that,Mr.t seemed to make communication physically i don know its good thing or what.it was like no feeling....history?????its not to be describe in words.as usual the super bully bothers but this time around i was more of serious and hack care.the rrrr iritated me i scolded in Tl and rhamesh translate me i could not help to laugh at my own jokes!hahs quite funny.rrr2 we talk between us.rrrr thought BGR.but both of us no response-i dunno but it should be a no....more of a friend i guess not for a XXXIX and i spilled somethings by incident and i just refused to talk about which made rrr2 ponder over it.yup that's all not in mood to summarise

nisha's edited pic

2009-02-07T17:02:00.002+08:00

none is to coment-copyrighted. :)

Ran out of words

2009-02-07T16:26:00.002+08:00

hey people!

i haven been blogging for a while.quite a number of things has been happening.emotionally broke down.i have told nisha but i could not translate how serious it was it might have sounded plaint to her.i was suffering but now it seem to fade off slowly amd am i happy!well,there is a tons of hw i only did tl corrections nothing else. i read a storybook found it interesting-dillion nce character. i know my suffering's cause was this.but is my age!you can afford to prevent just tumble of over it.sb may b the one but its rare to be asked in direct even them my ans will no or not interested or just ran away-escapist.hahs.majorly,outsiders,onlookers will have no idea what im talking about so don't bother.

nothing much to comment

2009-01-31T12:41:00.003+08:00

hey!About 5 days since I blog.alot has been happening but I am not in the mood to blog about the misery.I thought secondary 2 is a YEAR to have fun not until i saw Nisha working hard to buck up on her mathematics.she always urge me to move on with her actions!therefore,I am trying to work on my weaker subjects.it is really hard as you all should Self-discipline is in the end of my dictionary.I'm planning to complete my home works by Saturday so that I can catch OM SHANTI OM!and maybe brush up on my science.hopefully,all of this works.Nisha's birthday is around the corner..I be really want to celebrate her birthday grandly but my idea ended in vain.she means alot to be but she wants it to simple this year.What please her will do as a result my gift for her will be chain and a pair of earrings.it is just a matter of time how fast i get it to her..okay i got to run!dateline for home works its today.well,most of it....

I want to make it

2009-01-25T20:41:00.004+08:00

hey,people!

There is alot of home works.I should have done with maths,Eng journal,Tamil synthesis,Tamil correction however i have only completed the Tamil corrections!Honestly,i miss 1/1 so much...it was a broken class but I loved it.My kind,I am trying to shine in 2/1 but it seems harder every time.1/1 a year I met Nisha,Adhira,Juharah,Swasthi and countless pupils.There were heart aching fights,roaring laughter,an unusual variety of things on and off.The past is not known to the new but it will not wash away from our hearts.Apart from this,I find it so hard to know certain pupils character;hard to define.Sometimes,I just want to scream to them!I don't want to say who they are...Today,my mom was blabbering that after using the master-bedroom to bath,I'm acting weird and more rude and stubborn.I am not sure on that but I have changed alot after 12.They are not positive but negative ways.During this years i learnt that those whom are pretty is pure in fact I found people extremely beautiful after I knew them!I just adore them for what they are whereas the pupil whom are popularly known as cute,pretty,beautiful...I don't find them.I tend to judge that way.Talking about,all of you know that girls can't help it but to be jealous of others no matter how much they oppose the fact.No doubt I am also part of this issue but i am only jealous when people don't appreciate me!One person i have been yearning for is my d.a.d.I hope this year it comes often from d.a.d.Okay, i know i am blogging 'crab' cause i don't have anything to blog on.hee..i am leaving here then.

TASKS

2009-01-23T17:23:00.004+08:00

maths chapter 1(next friday)
science test(not sure)
tamil culture project(febuary 6)
tamil spelling(the article on henna at tamil wb-tuesday)
tamil composition corrections
tamil worksheet on synthesis
tamil newspaper article
maths book 2 (pg38)
ace-learning test(dateline:4feb)
science model drawing(30 jan)
sciencce xxxxx cancer(13 febuary)
history summary on chapter 1
literature($2.20 on 3rd feb)
geography project(dateline:march)
geography have a test after chinese new yr
english journal
art club collect ws
english ws (compre corrections?)
meet up with khin before 30 jan
geography read up chapter 2

the rollercoaster

2009-01-23T16:45:00.003+08:00

Today,it was like riding in an emotional roller coaster.i am having diarrhoea for pass few days as a result i came school late.ms.yee was expecting an answer when i passed her the detention slip as usual i smiled and went off...nic was smiling away cause i put on a wide smile!i returned to my seat when my group shouted my name like singing chorus then Saddam said "don't worry we will be here for you..."No idea what it was about.After that ms.yee gave us the comprehension worksheet individually.When i received mine from her,she asked if I'm alright cause i don't seem to be performing.that is when i felt low.she was true!i was not practicing.i am currently living in meaningless life.i had no goals so path to lead...all Indian girls after that were upset which eventually turned into potential energy.we planned to buy books and improve our work!Tamil test was hard.rhamesh and i was confused if there was SINDA today.While walking down the stairs i asked rhamesh again.i told him better inform me by smsing.Jj was making a big mountain out of a small mole!Actually,it is a huge thing if you have rhamesh number!he rarely gives it to anyone !i got it from bhanu.JJ was taking things in second meaning!during recess,nisha and i was discussing this matter.In the end, nisha said actually that I keep on saying that i no bf.but i do have! and she stated some names.some of them i don't even even take them as friend -as in we just talk when necessary.One second i was happy she told that!he he i have no idea why.maths,nic was behind us and he was saying adhira is cute as usual then out of blue say i am cute too!that was weird!he also say nisha is also cute after saying to me.no one says that.lol.the previous day he hesitated to say I'm cute and now he did.though it was a small incident he made me smile after ms.yees' miserable lesson.i was extremely happy after that!!!!!the only time people out of blue appreciated for my looks was this and last year.where Kristen just pinched my cheeks saying O jamunah so sad....its a nice feeling since i don't get it alot.lol.btw,does not mean i am a real cute teen or pretty one so DON'T create high expectations!Warning!adhira know my expressions she honestly knows that my expressions are weird,exotic and often like 'shit'.if you would like learn on expressions ask to cute girl-adhira or recently getting popular-nisha.they are smash hits!villu movie review will be posted today night if not tomorrow!

weak

2009-01-22T18:42:00.004+08:00

today i came to school in car as i woke up late around 6 in the end came to school early!i did not have a proper meal yesterday as a result today morning i was starving in hunger.today was the last lesson for learning styles did not pay attention had a lot of fun after recess!before that,i was sleeping halfway i could not take the pain...it felt like decomposing!lucky,my friends helped me to keep me up, especially nisha!thanks a lot ;appreciate it! she gave me her sweater and repeatedly alerted me when my eyelids were about to shut.she was very cooperative not a doubt on in!after recess the fun began we were talking all sorts of things!usually i talk to crap with nisha only !today it was among adhira,nisha and me!i usually don't speak about this things to adhira....ya but this time i did not bother!then this girls -nisha, adhira ...during the lesson were making me do eeeeeeewww things!oh my god!Worst of all,i ate 2 roti pratas!unbelievable!hopefully,i don't gain weight.lol.then,nisha was telling me i am flirty cause i was telling this pretty that cute!therefore, i raised my voice to justify my point!it was settled.nothing much there.Finally,i have realise that things have change between nisha and adhira .I am quite happy about it!let's hope it don't gives none of us any problem.lastly,if you notice i wrote in proper english.this is hard!

i wanna fall off

2009-01-21T21:57:00.002+08:00

whoo ppl so tired todae learning style course the best part martial art!i realise that pass few daes a ppl saes sth abt sbs appearance i agree to it heartly without objection weird........then nisha and i talk talk ten sth happen like eewwwww ten nic c aiyo we like i tell u but so totally accident.hmm ten yar so gona b breif went sinda saw rhamesh sis preety!!!ten im the only gerl in the class....i nvr register the teacher mr.aril i think so-malay c me shock cuz suppose to b 4 bois.......he ten intro ten rhamesh join in so the whole 2hrs we two only the rest duno what happen!the teacher look like a malay actor i think is arzil i nt sure.you guys after secondary scl my eng frm average went to nightmare.omg!!!!i read ran as run then like pronounce so badly ten smemore no fluency!aiyo...................i no confidence. RHAMESH omg eng-a1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he spoke so nce ten we were suppose to describe the pic to each other i gave up halfwae terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my eng sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!i mean it.so this will b my last post in singlish gt to train in proper.ten during break finally spoke to rhamesh continous!!!BIG THING.he told stuffs ten i tell aso fun gt to know him so much better.nce person veri much of what i thought he shld b!eng class my grp aso gd in speakin u notice i wont speak alot cuz i scared and bad eng thats y.so now on hear me speakin gddddddd eng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh yar-nisha gt sme info frm my couz of s will tell u.

SO MUCH TO SAY

2009-01-19T16:23:00.003+08:00

oo todae alot alot happen noot as much as in compared to nisha....of course.ok the 1st period=music,gt test ok no pron ten rice pull chair fought for chair.insane!end period 'nolas' ask want biscuit cuz he win sae no ten nisha sae no ten sb tok it duno wu.no big deal but i thought my no was nt polite so yar...then eng where it begins nth much normal lessons ten inri caught bcuz of me so i damn sad i sae apology tons times.later,hme econ test was not hard as expected.then ced the prob continued she sae nt to turn the paper n of course everyone did but i damn of the damn nvr hid she fought yen sae just nw u n inri nw this..sae meet after class haio that is it bad dae came almost felt like crying broke down like tat a whole i nvr have been in trouble nw i did like my whole gd gerl image gone bad.honestly,ms yee nvr pick on me but this is me i go with d flow.ar whatever gt to b cautious.geo again like lost in wild.ten came my last worst nightmare-they grp us aiyo i no 7!ALL bois smemre i like xtra.smemre shit my shit with rice.he pandi kept on bully so irritated smemre like.........ar nisha noes...........not right at all at all i mean it!smemre rhamesh sit there whalo nvr even help like hackcare whatever!ten in end i wana run he sae wait wait!duno lah bt i gt respect on him duno y .... god sec1 alr like hell ard rice nw like worst.spoil my image.i wish h2 was here so he act more decent in this....hate that part.ten yar nisha nvr talk to me sae i hurt her i duno on wat ten i sae bb she sae go awae ten i walk off lah ten saddam call i sae wat sae 2 of us sae sorry in the end nvr blah blah ten saw steve @ bkshop omg the small fight spread like fire he ask me i was like ah always happen....yar saw the whole was like miserable ten go hme nisha sae sorri i so happi cuz its like we just get together ten broke off bt honestly i wld sae lucki none here xcept some 2/2 knows the history of past.nisha soori i duno if i did sth wrong but im sorrry for all things kays.oh n forget wen locker r was tthere then sae my locker no i scared he tell rice sia i m running away frm all this.i nvr wish this i regret ........yar so blah blah

i really wish i was not soft @all bck to my bully gerl like in 1/1.sort of if i was rice,n others wld b like dust not like nw..................thats it gg long post.

!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-18T15:05:00.004+08:00

nisha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!seriously im so died i wish i nvr knew what you told me nor wish nvr met mr.t.aiyo so like haiyo mess life....wrote journal all the thingies aiyo .i wish you were here right now........butterfiles all flyin ard alr.........cant reali blog this things seriously gt to talk 2 u.hopefully!!!!!! i nvr waited for mondae so impatiently now im.heart beat racing alr nvr felt tis way its like e!upside down alr.ps-this blog was typed hyper fast so it seems like rubbish i will xplain things to you.

gt to sae

2009-01-14T17:05:00.003+08:00

hey ppl nvr post 4 quite a time.alot happening k.hmm maths i sit wit nisha change place that tme too far nw i near but the light so bright so like i cant see anithing like tat.alo ppl bully me especially my name and like a dumb i response aso cant help it.ten she sae my work compact but near so embarrassed.worst js n se regonise it!haiyo..........i duno y i find it hard to concentrate on maths!!!!not it was to b.this class is so optimistic and filled with exotic ppl,in gd wae.......sci experiment was nightmare nth fabulous.locker rocks lit time 4 me to bully js and smehw eousnj meet meet lol act like stare.hahs.ten nisha expained by mr. t omg!!!!!!!learnt nt to miss bus........hair todae fly fly like shit.geo lost in wild like tat.i was like i duno smile smile noy so much in fact i m getting quieter we weaker jus dun hw tis gerl use to b transform to vulnerable side jus nt rite.........a change that cant be controlled duno y it happens and im lostr and awkardly stuck in a world hard to blend............jus in peace that i ve my frends to go 4.

Gmail - Sent Mail

2009-01-07T20:32:00.000+08:00

Gmail - Sent Mail

better

2009-01-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

finali nw laptop can serve net nw!cut caBLE TV ALR!so nw damn borin!!!!!!todaE, made 3 friends steve,irni,saddam!steve and saddam are those who joke and laugh away while arni is the girl wu laugh on jokes i found irni friendly ,steve-duno unexplainable saddam kind sort of mysterious yet funny.ten here i am blur blur sometime the jokes dun make me laugh i find it rather rude or personal on like telling and jokin about others lah my opinion tey were like sae heard wrongly and giggling away... nth much lah happy with math,hme ecom,almost all.duno y at sec1 i used to hang alot with nisha and adhira and talk alot during breaks so on.nw im not talkin tat much especially to nisha.its like a lonely feeling despite there are so many ppl surround me.the ppl ard me talk english so gd especially irni im like dumb-founded.well lets see hw it flows yeah?could nt buy hme econ book hopefulli nisha found it for me n nisha sorri cant reply at fs duno y gt sme prob there kays......

leave it on the line

2008-12-28T22:21:00.002+08:00

if u notice nothing much been happin in ,y blog!yar in fact there too much going on that i dun wanna share so yar so you can get it...i hope.i feel some ppl have change from what i have seen.in particular one person from our class in a positive way.not much but a little sparkle i can see.i hope the sb pulls it offand dun go back to old tricks.hope the character improvement wont be drowned bck in the deep blue sea.dun wanna sae name kays.ten i e been reading one storybook well its weird its once a blue moon thing.while reading nisha came with her prob and i was like a detective which can be linked with the story.hmm yar today i made a few promises to myself but i did not keep any!since i went out to buy books for my sis. the mot hardest thing in my promises in coping with my mom! i know it sounds weird.i seem like a sweet gerl in scl and yaar but home especially to mom i m a witch.i truly agree.if she saes she wana buy or go there and for sme i hate that thing.i will start nudging like sth i will say o no dun phyically elbow her out from there scold her as in u will nvr change and so on irritate her. i cant help it to get annoyed when she do things i dun like.but i noe my mom is not my slave she have right to do what she want.smehw i tend to control over my mom and make up somehw.she is the most understanding person i ve frankly can b spoke with yet smehw i dun make the right gerl to her.its hard smetimes i make mount out of a smallmole purposely bcuz i wanna b appreciated more adored more.and then i just duno i ve mood swings regulary and i ten i just feel like fighting with my mom.even in her bad conditions not her worst conditions,though.i look like this sweet girl in scl and so on.at hme i lov to nudge my mom fight with my sis and so on.like a total differ person.but wen sb adore and appreciate understand me smehw i tend to ike and love them frm heart.but if i wanna be sweet im tellin i can be the sweetest thing i change like water.dun ask me y cuz i duno.BUT though i nudge and irritate my mom the person i lov as much as my sis, i love her from deep inside my heart.unfortunatly,i nvr agree to that when it cme reality i will sae love dad!we can be cat and dog in the end the bond is stronger and happier than b4.i fight with her cuz i love her the most....i noe writing in blog wont transfer this message to her but smetimes its best u agree to the truth deep inside yr heart rather than the blanket coverin the truth!

leavin soon

2008-12-12T16:41:00.003+08:00

hey ppl!soon leaving singapore.missing sg alr actualli more of nisha.i mean its like everydae i somehow get connected with her=friendster,blog,sms,live.then,now suddenly going away 7-8 daes with no words spoken.sad. she is special.i ve friends for 2 yrs but none like her.we oni met for mths.she knows me in greater details than any other.thxful to ve met her.i had times where i feel like running away from her but then she just pulls me back just lke a magnet.it was like every moment i enjoyed seeing her.i came to scl just see her and my friends.she made this world b4 it was died no one close to share with it.now,it differ there sb to share wat i feel.its nce sth just cant told by words.i nvr thought anyone would ve affected me this much.she's the one whu showed me the real world set me goals wen i dont'she does not know that.she's just great to be with.sme sort like a baby .hahs cute lah wen smile giv expressions makes u giggles she shares her glows.mak you fel special.sure m i lucky!

Christian H. Godefroy: Friend Quotations
When we hurt each other we should
write it down in the sand, so the winds of forgiveness can make it go away for
good. When we help each other we should chisel it in stone, lest we never forget
the love of a friend.

taken from cheryl

2008-12-11T16:46:00.002+08:00

Rules:1. Each player of this game start of with 10 weird
things/habits/little known facts about yourself2.
People who get tagged have to write 10 thing little known facts3.
The end you need to choose 10 people to tag and list out their names4.
No tag back the person who tagged you

Here's the 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself;1)
1)love vegies n fruits
2)lke to choreo tl dance-not reali imagine
3)jump from a building
4)sumo with mom
5)like kissin my sis
6)lov to hold hand with my couz
7)like to kick box-duno hw lar
8)left handed
9) dark brown eyes
10)nvr laugh out loud in class-guess

My name
;A: you like to drink
B: you like people
C: you are really silly
D: you like to eat
E: you like to play with dogs
F: you are dead sexy
G: you never let people tell you what to do
H: you have good personality and good looks
I: easy to be with
J: people adore you
K: you are wild and crazy
L: everyone loves you
M: best kisser ever
N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
O: easy to fall in love with
P: you are popular with all types of people
Q: you are a tomboy
R: you are loyal to those who love you
S: crazy
T: awesome kisses
U: you really like to chill
V: awesome in bed
W: you are very broad minded
X: you love sports
Y: best GF/BF anyone could ask for
Z: always ready

me:jamunah
J: people adore you

A: you like to drink

M: best kisser ever

U: you really like to chill

N: best GF/BF anyone could ask for

A: you like to drink

H: you have good personality and good looks

haha i cant believe im made up of tis list above

but impleased to hear that.nisha u think im the above?n u r tag.

so copy tis n du for you too!

hahs mayb

2008-12-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

Pisces is widely considered to be naturally compatible with the same element signs, Cancer and Scorpio.
lol u noe in the net i chat tis gerl duno even wat name in habbo-hehe like childish.ten i was telling that i wish one person wld like and to noe more.i told that i wished for a few but particularly one.i nvr thought that tis:mayb its sth more! for any of the others i wish.and shocking this person is indian the same hmm cheddiyar-nt sure spelling as me.it my horoscope that i best go with the above.the person is cancer!ten i told it is like i want the sb to like me but i noe it;s 4 no gd cuz got study and ving strict family!im running away frm that sb its like make sure i dun make any move.yet afraid that all tis similarity on race and so on wil make me lose control.the gerl said watever it is the fate will bring it to you.i guess she's right .if that is for you.you wil be brought to him or her.hehe.and NO cOMMENTS ON THIS K!

wtf

2008-12-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

i got to sae wtf to 2 ppl.one for me out went in my soul that i went so rude another for h2!suck sia i nvr disturb cme fiendster disturb.annoying though fun dun have to hell rude.i deleted the comment b4 any1 saw.so not grown up like baby!got ask the dumb to go prescl!ok lah actually i ve no right to scold and wat but i noe h2 like that from young the environment like that.but smetimes it gets in yr head u feel telling shut up u *******.hahs ok cool emotion ran for todae post nw realise its total shit.so forget abt it.hahs cool bck again

the urge for me to get you cant b measured

2008-12-08T13:47:00.003+08:00

i cant believe after so many months i feel like offically agreeing to what nisha said to me.i meant she even asked me and im always stumped.at first i knew hmm at least in scientific way strong attraction.hey dun get tis wrong r ppl!!!honestly, i got to be hoest none has impressed me that much b4 even knowing them in character wise.may has fallen and give up ah but i dun bother.^_^one wae or another tis person often comes into my mind.im trying to run away from that person i will sae go away!get rid of it!in my mind but it is leading me no where.smetimes,i will make a move after months regret abt it.if i didn't nade the move i would ve to suffer everydaeten i thought if i didn't do i wld ve suffered frm thinking i could ve give it a short but it allowed me to make me harder and bounce off.so like im not makin any move but teribaly wanna c the person.cying that person-alot things is happening in me...i liked it.i noe its not possible to make an intro but bck in my mind i always thought there will b someone better can b:gerl/boi.or that person dserve sb beta.and sometmes,if its too high i will think if fate decides it wil bring things together all i wana is more abt that person.i noe this very secretive and very brief u al wo is it.thats wat i want.i dun want you al to know wo is it.and pls this fo me to express my thoughts in blog not for you to comment!unless told so.so NONE-everyone-frends,couz,woever,everybody- SHLD not BE COMMENTInG ON THIS POST.zeep it ppl!

Nothing to lose

miracle only happens once

whay world am i in

its newly old

15 and ?

new world

the first rain

plans

right now ,push me forward

slippping off so bad

home

"too much information"

what's the point?

Im trying to make it though its faking it

stop

Cousins play day

PEAR LADY

yeah u n me what?

an acceptance

its all alone

living through confusion

hmm *coughing*

quiz crazy

different

throwing out

i would like to believe that planet earth turns sloowly...

sweet ;that was a lil sweeter

u make me go creepier creepier

AaAaAaaA VIKRAM!

not losing out

im loving it all tonite

lovin it all

miserable events

de cover tells a different story

thriller-mj

Insecure

u will find hapiness

suffocating in time

fab.fridae

out n dated

gone where

look at the sky

strangled and tangled

let it take me

off alone in heart

regret yr moves

i cant judge them

sicker

trip to sentosa

false alarm!

lost handphone

get that

not her

last dae b4 june holidaes

----

juju frewn

complex

Dream aka campkgscl

survival game

quiz

hard wrk

inspore

give in...

B.D.O

betrayer

what im not suppose to be.....

wat a great dae

change

2 big daes

IT's what i call the best

SPOrts day & nightmare info

mormal mondae

differ perspective

100th homewrk

march mumbrella

sisters short time

my normal birthday

where are we leading?

im lost once again

brief

hmm coughing